Today it has really hit me - we have lost our baby. I feel so sad. Yesterday I had some philosophical moments about it all, but this morning it is like walking through fog. This might have been our only chance of having a baby. It's been nine long years with so much pain and disappointment. My heart is breaking.

What a roller-coaster - I never thought I would make it past LTTTC, then I had the most amazing news just before Christmas and found my August BellyBuddies. Now I'm here sharing your losses. Still waiting for the bleeding to start but still have all my pregnancy symptoms... I want it to end but I don't want it to be over