Thank you Tanya, Lissy, Loula. I can't stop crying. My mum has been with me all day - she's just gone home. I tried to have something to eat but I feel so sick and miserable. I'm so disappointed and sad. It's not that I have a bad life or anything - I have lovely friends and family - it just feels a bit empty and a bit meaningless without the bub - don't know why it matters so much, just does. I was showing Mum the pics from Christmas in Melbourne and seeing the beaming smiles on our faces and I felt crushed. DH was so so excited and pleased. He's been lovely - very attentive and gentle but he has to go to work and I miss him terribly. Have rung the Dr to see when I can have the D&C done. I can't go on like this for weeks waiting - it's too much. And then I read how hard it is to recover and know that it will go on for weeks anyway. It's such a different type of grief and disappointment to our negative IVF results. I guess having had weeks of all these pregnancy symptoms and all the ideas that start to form in your head of what might come make it difficult in a different way. I'm going to try to get some rest now. Thankyou for your kind thoughts and replies - they mean a lot to me. Alice x

Oh Babyjo, I'm so sorry. So kind of you to share that with me when you must be going through so much yourself. Big hugs to you too. x