Oh Alison that sucks (Id like to use stronger words!), I was really hoping for more positive news. As for the scanning place, just dont go there again if you can; might ease things a bit in the future. Ive done it before, switched scan places.

Im am just so angry with the cards some of us are dealt. Its unfair. I dont begrudge people not having to go through this journey and being lucky enough to have the children they want without problems but Im irrational atm; if one more person tells me to be positive and think of what I have I will lose my marbles. Im especially angry at my best friend, who has not bothered to contact me today even though I know she has been on FB. She's probably upset that I put out the apology that I am not going to be a person to coo over pregnancies and babies for awhile so I dont want anyone to get narky or offended if I just ignore those things to protect my battered heart til it heals a little. She has been 100% focused on herself since she found out she was pregnant, and I get that I do but Ive had two m/c's since she found out and not once has she even for a second though about the position it puts me in. I went to her 12 and 20wk scans because her DH couldnt be there even though it hurt alot, did she even acknowledge that? Nope. I have listened to her complain about feeling tired and sick all the time, and I get that too I do pregnancy has never been a walk in the park for me, but really complaining to me about that all the time and Im supposed to grin and nod? I guess Im feeling a little unconsidered, selfish I know but meh Im in a selfish mood tonight.