Miscarriage/Loss General Discussion #3

Freya, thats awful. I hope things start improving for you soon.

AFM - Im 11w now and still stressing a lot, which I guess is normal.

Thinking of all you precious ladies in this thread :grouphug:

Hi Porsche - answering your HCG question from earlier, I had a 204 reading at 14dpo which they said was a great level, at 16dpo it was 380.....maybe it's twins for you?

AFM - I'm just sitting here waiting until Monday, apparently they won't do anything until my bub's heart beat stops. This sucks, I feel sick day in day out, can't sleep at night, the bloating from the progesterone is actually painful, I just want to move on and I can't again. Am appalled at the clinic's treatment, they didn't even call me, I had to call them and then the nurse said the specialist hadn't said anything other than re-scan on Monday WTF! So my cousin who's an OB works at another clinic, it's a little hike eto get there but she's squeezing me in with the professor/director of the clinic, we're going to go straight to IVF with pre-implantation genetic testing so we can avoid any dud eggs, I have gotten pregnant 4 times in 12 months so that's not my problem, now I have the prog sorted I just need to make sure I get good eggs. I think I'm more angry this time in all honesty, that this has happened again, I wanted the FS to look into other options are my last miscarriage in January but I couldn't get into see him until last week, which of course I cancelled as I didn't think I needed it! GRRRR to the world I say.

Alison, massive hugs honey :hug:. I can only imagine how stressed you must be and pi**ed off as well at the treatment you've been getting. Boo to them all! Hopefully your cousin's clinic can steer you in the right direction. I'm sure they will hun. You seem very fertile hun, I guess it's just getting that good eggie. My problem too :(. Boo hoo! xoxoxox

Hi Ladies

Alison - I'm so glad your seeing someone else. The clinic your with sound very lax for lack of a better word. They haven't got your best intrest at heart. Does this Dr just focus on fertility or does he/she do obstetrics as well? You need to see someone who is focused on fertility only. That way they are working for YOU and not treating you as a side "hobby" so to speak. You need someone who won't feed you BS either. If you were in QLD I'd highly recomend my FS. Many patients fly in from interstate to see him.

Let us know how you go. This must be absolute agony for you. :hug:.

Yes I agree with what Porsche said. Alison where are you based??

Well my luck may either be looking up or going to spectacularly drop.

I got a +. I tested because I could, its kind of become a compulsion, the closer I get to AF the more I want to test and usually I do. I nearly fell off the toilet in surprise, its a pretty obvious + but still quite faint. Considering I had all that bleeding and we only dtd ONCE on like CD18 or something I cant believe its even happened. Im freaking out. Really freaking out. And Dh is away until the 30th May which happens to be the same day as my IVF appt.

Part of me wants to run off to the Drs on Monday and get bloods done; majority of me wants to bury my head in the sand. Im taking asprin JIC. I dont even know how many DPO I could be, I could be 10-11dpo or I could be earlier. I dont think AF is due til Mon or Tues so my guess is 11-12dpo today. If I was optimistic I would say its a decent + for that dpo...............ugh but I keep getting a few little cramps and doing the wipe and check. I really REALLY hate this :(

Man another possible January baby. If it does work out, we'll have two birthdays in January (Ds2 is Jan 2nd, his EDD was Jan 17th!), it would be good timing as DH is on holidays for most of Dec/Jan every year. Downside is its the middle of wet season which equals rain and ridiculous humidity.

I definitely wont be sharing til we see a heartbeat. Ive only told select people because I wanted to make sure I wasnt imagining the second line.

Yay Freya!!!!!! Im sooo happy for you. I am hoping and praying that this is a sticky baby for you! BTW, Ive been taking asprin since my BFP too. Hugs for the next few months as its a scary time for us with recurrent m/c.

So because Im paranoid I went and bought a FRER and a digital, even though I have never gotten a 'pregnant' on the digitals until I have been atleast 4 days past AF being due, usually closer to 5 weeks.

There is a definate line on the FRER, nearly identical in colour strength. And I got 'Pregnant 2-3' on the digital :o I nearly fell off my chair. I would be barely 12dpo! It should only say 1-2. So I hope that is a huge indication of a very sticky baby.

I still dont believe it. Please powers that be, let the next 3 weeks go fast :pray:

Oooooh Freya I am so excited for you hunni!!! Please please stick little bubba :pray:. I'm really hoping and praying hard your luck is turning around!! Big hugs and stay calm hun :cool: xoxox

COngrats Freya!!! Sounds like a good sticky one! With this pregnancy we only did it once too! So I get the OMG :o ...... I have everything crossed for you hun you have had a rotten time of late xoxo

Its over. Had a massive bleed, as if miscarrying isnt undignified enough I bled through my ****ing pants in the carpark of the Drs office. Go me. Did another digi just now and it said 'Pregnant 1-2' so my guess is hcg is dropping. I got a beautiful darker-than-control-line FRER last night too. I just dont know what to do anymore. Worse yet, Im alone since hubby is away.


I cant do this anymore, I just cant.

Oh freya. I am so sorry.

My heart breaks for you :(

Oh Freya sweet heart I am so sorry....... I don't understand why life can be so cruel...... Is there anyone who can come over and give you some real life support? I am so sorry xoxoxo

Freya hugs darling x

Thanks guys. Ive had people calling me all afternoon and a very good friend dropped off some chocolate, chips and tim tams for me lol

This is really weird. Ive had no more bleeding since the incident this arvo; a few smears when I wiped in the hour or so after but now nothing. Ive got a few aches and pains but nothing substantial. Really really weird. Wish it would just get on with it, I hate sitting in limbo.

Did you have a scan to confirm your loss hun? Maybe it was not what you think. I know I know, I've said that to myself every damn time. :hug:

The last 2 nights, I've had baby dreams. Adopting in one (from Quinn in Glee), and my mother paying someone to seduce me to get me pregnant in the other (Puck). Far out. Weirdo dreams, but they've left me shattered for some reason. This morning I cried so much I had to go back to bed, I felt empty like when I woke up from my D&C.

Last night I realised that last year was the first year since I've been married that I haven't gotten pregnant. I guess I still had some hope left, even when I was losing babies. But not even having them at all is worse, at least for me.

No I havent had a scan yet because Im not entirely sure how far along I would be. Im going to still go for my bHCG test tomorrow and thurs and see how that goes. Im still entirely pessimistic but I guess until the bleeding continues or a scan confirms the worst there is always the minute sliver of chance. I would never be that lucky though :(

I'm really sorry Freya, I hope the bleeding turns out nothing, I had a big bleed 2 weeks ago, went for a scan assuming the worst to find out I had a subchorionic hematoma, apparently quite common so maybe it's that? I had cramping with it too. Hoping everything is ok for you xx

AFM - well confirmed my bub's heart beat has gone - 8 weeks, 4 days today. Booked in for my 2nd D&C in a few months for Wednesday so I can have the testing done. Will stop the progesterone and hope the mc doesn't come on before I go in. I have been given a specimen jar in case, oh joy. I just want it over again, I want to feel normal and not sick anymore, you don't mind so much when its for a reason but when it's not it's hard to take. Got my appointment with the new clinic in July, that gives me a good break to de-stress and try my luck elsewhere. The OB I saw today is an FS at the current clinic but basically told me in not so many words that they generally don't like to step on each other's toes so I think moving clinics is probably necessary anyway. Besides, I feel jinxed at that place, I will never set foot in that scanning place again for a while I tell you, urgh. In the last 6 months I've been pregnant for 4 of them and not pregnant for 2, yet still no baby to show, how does that work.

Hope everyone else is well and plodding along as always xx