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Freya, I really hope everything turns out OK hun. I really do :hug:
Alison, I am so heartbroken for you hun :cry:. Life can be so cruel sometimes. I don't know why such a beautiful person like yourself has to go through loss time and time again. It really just sucks big time and it's so bloody unfair. I wish it wasn't the case hun. Big hugs darling, I hope the new place brings you more luck and that gorgeous take home bubba :hug:
Keike, hugs lovely :hug:
Oh Alison :( that sucks (Id like to use stronger words!), I was really hoping for more positive news. As for the scanning place, just dont go there again if you can; might ease things a bit in the future. Ive done it before, switched scan places.
Im am just so angry with the cards some of us are dealt. Its unfair. I dont begrudge people not having to go through this journey and being lucky enough to have the children they want without problems but Im irrational atm; if one more person tells me to be positive and think of what I have I will lose my marbles. Im especially angry at my best friend, who has not bothered to contact me today even though I know she has been on FB. She's probably upset that I put out the apology that I am not going to be a person to coo over pregnancies and babies for awhile so I dont want anyone to get narky or offended if I just ignore those things to protect my battered heart til it heals a little. She has been 100% focused on herself since she found out she was pregnant, and I get that I do but Ive had two m/c's since she found out and not once has she even for a second though about the position it puts me in. I went to her 12 and 20wk scans because her DH couldnt be there even though it hurt alot, did she even acknowledge that? Nope. I have listened to her complain about feeling tired and sick all the time, and I get that too I do pregnancy has never been a walk in the park for me, but really complaining to me about that all the time and Im supposed to grin and nod? I guess Im feeling a little unconsidered, selfish I know but meh Im in a selfish mood tonight.
Freya, you are not selfish at all sweets. In fact, as happy as I am to hear that your bestie is pg, I am really sad to hear that she hasn't been more supportive of you through your 2 m/c since she's been pg. Now that's selfish hun :hug:
Thanks Miss B, I only get through it because of beautiful people like yourself giving me encouragement and hugs :hug:
Freya, I could have written that post myself! I had a girl I know who has a daughter my daughter's age and is as far as long as me with her 2nd (bear in mind it took her 12 months to get the 2nd) and do you know what she said to me when I told her the other day......."do you think this is someone trying to tell you something, I mean, you are blessed to have Amelia at least".....I couldn't even reply, I like to chat and yet I was lost for words. If she had've said it to my face, I think I would have punched her from one end of the room to the other, no lie. I'm sick of hearing those kinds of be grateful for what you already have comments. Bugger off, unless you've walked in my shoes, bugger off. Hugs to us all xx
Alison I am sorry hun... I wish I had the right words to help ease your pain sweetie xx
Freya and Alison - do we have the same best friend??? Mine is the same, when the hospital had the memorial service for babies (unders 20 weeks) who didn't make we went for Hugh which was so overwhelming - she forgot and never mentioned anything about it.... and many more things which I won't go into as I would be here all day!! I don't get how people can be so self absorbed - it hurts :grouphug:
Alison - Im so sorry. Im sorry you are living the nightmare I have just endured. I also was sick (vomiting several times a day and crazy sick at night) after all my babies had passed, while waiting for the D&C. I had 3 D&Cs in 11 months and was pg for most of them, 35w all up. I know how bad it is. I also had a friend tell me to be happy with the two I had and not try again. I was so upset by those comments. Its going to be very hard over the next few weeks and months, but I hope and pray your next pg is a sticky one. I lost hope after 4 m/c but here I am with hope of a sticky one. Please dont give up.
Freya - Im sorry to hear about the bleed. I hope that it is a one off and bub is just getting comfy. Of course its natural to believe the worst when thats all you are used to getting, and hey, Ive done plenty of that this pg. Im sorry also that your friend is so selfish, she doesnt realise how lucky she is!! I dont know why it has to be so hard for so many. I wish you all the best for your appt hun.
Going to hospital, keep bleeding heavily through my pants and Im in alot of pain. Will update when I can.
Oh no Freya .... Hope you are ok (under the circumstances that is) xx
Being admitted. Had ultrasound, they can see a mass next to left ovary and internal bleeding so I'm waiting on Obgyn to decide my fate but I am nil by mouth so its probably surgery. I think this will be the end of our journey I just can't keep doing this :(
Hope you're ok Freya
Xxx
Freya oh sweetie I am thinking of you. Hope you are ok x
Hugs Freya, thinking of you and sending you strength...
Hello to everybody else, I am sticking my head back out in the world after recovering, it has taken so long!
Thinking of you Freya, I hope you're OK hun :hug:
Hello ladybirdflies, so nice to hear from you sweetie. Big hugs xoxox
Hi Ladies
Freya - Sending big hugs to you. Hoping everything is ok. :hug:
Ladybirdflies - Great to see you back (ykwim).
Alison - Thinking of you. Hoping all goes well.
Oh no Freya, Im devestated for you. Im hoping you are ok. :hug:
Hi girls, I think I'll join in here if I may.
I've had an early mc, a couple of chem pregs and now this one at (almost) 9 weeks. I think this one is going to shadow any future pregnancies more than the others did because my bfps were so dark with this one, and at 6 weeks my hcg was high, so I felt like this one was really a goer. But, not. I also think I am going to be paranoid about morning sickness from here on cos I had virtually none with this preg and it ended badly.
And I must say, a mc at 9 weeks is rather more ,um, full on than one at 5.5weeks. The bulk of it happened yesterday but I had been bleeding since Friday.
Alison - hi hun I see you are in here. It looks like we are still in sync - which would almost be amusing if it wasn't so horrible and tragic for us both. xx
I suppose at least I am getting better at conceiving apparently - after 9 months of trying with absolutely nothing I then got utd 3 times in 4 cycles. ??? Hopefully that part at least will stay the same, and I will hope for a better outcome.
I've been grieving since Friday so thought I'd done most of it, but have been extremely teary on and off today. I think it was something to do with having to go back out there and face the real world (have been mostly hanging out in my pjs for the last few days.)
xxx
Just a quick update.
Back at home, they ended up not doing surgery because Ive started bleeding a bit more consistently. They still arent ruling out a ectopic of unknown origin (meaning they dont know where the baby implanted) but they are guessing its outside the uterus. I have to go back to the hospital on Tues for follow up bloods (my bHCG only went from 69 on tues when this all started to 54 yesterday) and they are going to investigate why this keeps happening to me. If my bloods havent dropped enough theyll look at doing surgery.
Ive kinda made myself numb so I dont have to hurt. This really really sucks.
Hi Ladies
Smamfa - I'm so sorry you've had to join us here. You take as long as you like to greive. There are no ruls to that.
Freya - What a terrible time your having. I hope they can give you some answers soon.