Tomorrow is my first day back at work after my miscarriage. I had the D&C last Friday - still bleeding lightly and a bit sore in the tummy so it's been good to have these days resting. It is getting easier to cope with - I don't wake up crying or go to bed crying. I feel sad but it is more a dull ache now than the raw pain I felt over the weekend. Having some comforting chats with my husband - reminiscing about the conversations we had when we found out and other discussions we had about names and how to rearrange the house and all the symptoms I had (which he thought were very amusing). It's nice to talk about it.

Today I went through my folder of letters and treatment reports going way back through the years to when we first started TTC. I put it all in order and I don't know, is that a strange thing to do? It felt comforting to go through everything and think about the journey we've had. This last cycle, where I fell pregnant, was going to be our last. Now I don't know what to do - it's hard not to try again after this sudden and unexpected miracle we just had but then when do we stop? I guess we'll know when it comes. For now I want to try again, and so does my husband, so that's good. Still need to see our doc.

I don't know why I did it, but I went back to my BellyBuddies group for a read. I'm happy they are all doing so well now but it made me sad too. Wish I was in there with them still. Anyway, that's all from me for now.

Alice x