Thanks Alibaby. Nothing feels normal right now and actually, my view of normal has pretty much changed forever by knowing I can actually be pregnant, that I was pregnant, and that now I'm not pregnant anymore. I wonder, over and over, if it is something we can repeat and whether we will, one day soon, hold our baby in our arms. Lots of 'what ifs' going on in my head that probably aren't that helpful right now so maybe work will be a good distraction.

Going back feels a little bit like going in for the D&C - it somehow marks this whole time as being over (I was on holidays when we got the BFP and first day back at work when we found out the embryo had stopped growing) and that is something I need to push myself past or I could stay home being sad for a long long time I think.

Thanks for your support and for your reply - it really helps.

Alice x