Oh keike I am so sorry to see you're having a tough day. A friend once told me, that those babies you lose, their spirit will eventually come back to you some how... Through another baby, a new family member, a close friend, a pet.. They eventually find their way into your life. I just thought it was a beautiful way of thinking, it helps me out on my tough days.. Knowing those two beautiful angels will find me again one day ( if not already have ) . . .