Thankyou to You All, Melinda i live in a place called Jericho up In the midlands, but im willing to travel if your willing to meet up. i dont think it matters when in your pregnancy you lose im sure its just as painful, maybe more as time goes by because youve had more time to bond but painful all the same, i feel for the parents who lost there baby before 20 weeks as they dont get to say goodbye properly, no funeral or anything, a friend of mine lost her baby at three months and has told me that in a way attending jesse's funeral has helped her, i am thankful that i can still "visit" jesse and tell him things even sing to him as i have done with all my babies, Jesse's death has most certainly opened up a door of new appreciation for my two remaining kidlings, my partner makes it hard because he seems to be pushing them away more anf the work load of everything is falling upon my own shoulders, it was only in the last couple of months that he really began to help, getting up to them of a morning to allow me to sleep in even getting up to ruby through out the night, unfortunately hes taken all this as reason to dump it all back on me, i havent ever coped well with parenting but i do my best.
thanks again guys, its nice to have people out there who understand my feelings and care..