Ellie
I don't think I can answer any of your questions. But I have lost an angel and I have got a mum who always changes the subject to her when I talk to her. I just listen to her probs as sometimes I'm greatfull that she gives me something else to think about or a problem to work out for her. As all I do these days is go around on auto pilot she stimulates my mind some days and makes me as angry as hell others.

As for something to do to other than house work try knitting. I have become a scarf knitter in the last 6 months every one has a scarf this winter, I only know one stitch lol
Books don't do it for me as I can't concentrate.

Will you be getting an u/s next week to check if there is a heartbeat because your levels are still going up.

I'll be thinking of you, lots of hugs
Chris