I am so sorry Tegan. I am sending you the biggest hugs honey. I know you can do it.....Lily is proof of that. I know there is nothing I can say but if you do need to talk, a shoulder to cry on. I am here..... Try to rest and give Lily big hugs whenever the hurt gets too bad.... I like to think that by hugging my girls, I'm letting my angel bubs know I still think of them and I miss and ache for them....