Thanks everyone for all the words of comfort. It really does mean a lot to know people hear me, people get me... thank you.
I offloaded the kids today and took some time out. I was going to go to a movie but when I got to the ticket booth it was surrounded by mums with babies, sure enough I'd picked a mums n bubs session
Went wandering instead, saw a nice maxi dress in Jeanswest and thought "That'd be nice for Christmas day, oh wait I can't wear that, I'll have a belly, oh that's right, I won't..."
Everything seems to make it hurt at the moment.
DH is working again tonight. He's coming home for dinner and will help me put the kids to bed but then he's got to go back to work. Guess where he's working? Our church. They're redoing the kitchen and it has to be done before Saturday for some reason. He's not even getting paid for it.
So I'm going to be alone, again. When I need him the most, he can't be here. He hates it, I hate it, but he can't say no. He could, but they'd be stuffed.
OP - thinking of you through what is a horrible time. I hope DH gets the kitchen done quickly so he can come home with arms to cuddle you. All my RL friends were pg when I lost our angel and I felt incredibly alone also. I have no other words of wisdom save that there are some wonderful people on here who want to support you - I hope you are able to let them do that and allow someone to raise you up during this time.
Remember one day you'll look back and see one set of footprints through this time - He is carrying you.
Still thinking of you every day even though I dont get on to BB very much to post. I am sure you must be experiencing many different emotions. lots of prayers of strength and love coming your way
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