You are not being silly. All my losses were early & after each one I got very upset at just the sight of a pregnant woman or a newborn bub. I tried to avoid gatherings where they might be but to be honest it's pretty hard to do.

I remember being upset whenever I was around my then partner's sister because I was originally due before she was, then I was due a month afterwards, then with the third pregnancy in that 12 month period I was due 4 months after her. She was a constant reminder for me of what I'd lost. She was not tactful at all & constantly talked about her pregnancy which made it extremely difficult for me. I was OK while I was pregnant, but so not OK when I wasn't. She just didn't seem to get how difficult it was for me to hear all the baby talk.

I remember after I had the 2nd loss that year that I told my then partner that I was not even going to go to the hospital to see her when the baby was born cos I knew I'd just sit there and bawl so why put myself through that. Luckily for me though I was pregnant again by then so I managed to go without an issue.

I found shopping centres a nightmare because after a loss they seem to be filled with pregnant women & newborns. Seeing kids queuing to see Santa would make me bawl, seeing parents getting their bubs photos taken at those photo places in the shops would make me bawl.... any kids entertainment in the shops would bring tears..... they just reminded me of what I'd lost.... and because of my age I'd got to the stage that I thought I'd never have a bub.

I actually remember seeing longing glances from women when I was heavily pregnant & I knew exactly what was going through their heads because I'd been there.

Do whatever you have to do to get yourself through. If that is avoiding family gatherings for a while then do it. If like me it means walking out of a room mid baby conversation to sit in a room on your own or sob out in the backyard go do it. Only you will be able to get yourself out of the uncomfortable situation.