So many hugs Wrangalove. We were in the same July group and I've just been through the same thing over Xmas and New Years. It's tough. If you need a chat, please get in touch. I lost my first daughter at 37 weeks too 9 months ago. I don't have any living children and I know just a little about the pain you must be feeling. I too feel pretty disappointed. Thinking of you, and love to you xxx