thank you all for your kind words. my DP and i have been talking it all through and the hardest thing we are both trying to work out it how it happened. there was no warning signs at all. i just started to bleed and the next morning it was over. its just so sudden. last time i had 2 weeks to wrap my head around it before the big event. this just kind of crept up on me.

i will try again. i want children more than anything. hopefully i'll be floating in the pregnant section again soon.