I didn't think this would be so hard I've had one loss already, but I was much further on and in all honesty, I think I was so in shock, I barely remember the whole experience. I've blocked out so much of it at the time, I am still going to see my psych about it. This time it's different. I am really aware of everything. I think because I didn't let myself relax fully, and I was almost half expecting for something to go wrong, it hit me hard but not that hard that I was in shock and in a daze itms????? The thing is, I am really struggling with the fact that I am not pg anymore. I should be around 10 weeks along. I still have that really bloated belly, the boobs are still a lot bigger that my normal size, so I look pg. Except I'm not. I struggle with little bellies, not big ones, because they remind me of what I had and still have, but no baby is in there anymore. I can cope well with big bellies, newborns, other babies, birth announcements, but if someone tells me they're just found out they're pg, or they're almost finished their 1st trimester, or even another bloody celebrity on the magazine announces "I'm pg!!!!", it's like a stab in the heart. I just want to feel normal again I miss being pg so much, it's unbearable sometimes. No need to reply, just feels better to get this out. Thanks for listening.
Thinking of you, I know when I had my miscarriage about 4 weeks after it I had a breakdown at work when someone said something to my pregnant collegue. It is so hard an so few people understand the emotions that come with a miscarriage.
Big hugs Miss B - you are such a great support to everyone else - hope that we can all help you out now with a shoulder to cry on and an ear to listen.
I am sorry to read this MissB, it is not an easy path at all. It's more difficult when the world continues to move at such a fast pace and you are not able to be still and be with what is being asked of you. May you feel supported as you walk this journey xx
- Im so sorry you are struggling. I wish I could take your pain away, but I cant, all I can do is say that I understand, fully, and that I am here to support you whenever you need.
Miss B, I'm so so sorry
All I can say is let yourself feel everything you're feeling. Cry, break down, be devastated and don't try to feel "normal" before you're ready.
Thinking of you x
Missb here is another of my hugs for you. I am so sorry you have to go through this again and hopefully in time the pain will ease a bit even though it will never go away completely.
We are all here for you to blurt out your feelings and talk about it.
Hope you have been able to get some rest as that is important to help you cope as well, cry whenever you need to, it always makes me feel a bit better xo
Go easy on yourself hun you're entitled to find it hard, to struggle, to grieve all that you have lost I wish it wasn't so, and I wish I knew the right words to say to help ease the heartache you're feeling xx
it's so hard. And I get the pregnancy announcement thing because I still struggle with them and I'm 30weeks pregnant!
Be kind to yourself in this difficult time in your life.
It's just not fair is it? This journey should be full of joy not heartbreak. It's normal to feel like this, you are in a state of grief and loss so take the time to mourn the loss of your pg and baby
Sending you another warm hug and a big box of tissues as it's ok to cry as you get through it, give that DS of yours a big squishy hug, little ppl hugs are very therapeutic x x
It is just ****. I was always shocked at how badly I handled my losses. Until I came to realise that it really is tragic and earth shattering so why shouldn't it knock me for six
Struggling after m/c
I've had one loss already, but I was much further on and in all honesty, I think I was so in shock, I barely remember the whole experience. I've blocked out so much of it at the time, I am still going to see my psych about it. This time it's different. I am really aware of everything. I think because I didn't let myself relax fully, and I was almost half expecting for something to go wrong, it hit me hard but not that hard that I was in shock and in a daze itms????? The thing is, I am really struggling with the fact that I am not pg anymore. I should be around 10 weeks along. I still have that really bloated belly, the boobs are still a lot bigger that my normal size, so I look pg. Except I'm not. I struggle with little bellies, not big ones, because they remind me of what I had and still have, but no baby is in there anymore. I can cope well with big bellies, newborns, other babies, birth announcements, but if someone tells me they're just found out they're pg, or they're almost finished their 1st trimester, or even another bloody celebrity on the magazine announces "I'm pg!!!!", it's like a stab in the heart. I just want to feel normal again
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