I think you're really brave to deal with all this, especially without the support of family, and hopefully you'll feel some relief now that you've let it out. Talking about it, even writing about it, is a big step in the process of grieving and being able to move forward. I'm not saying forget about it now, but to be able to acknowledge it and think about it instead of hiding it away and letting it eat at you, it's healing and you can start to move ahead now in your thoughts and life.
Life's pretty messy sometimes, and it's so hard to think clearly when something so horrible is happening, but you did the best you could. I think maybe it would be helpful if you have a small personal ritual whenever you feel like it, to acknowledge yourself and your babies, and make it something positive in your family's life. Light a special candle, plant some flowers or a tree, whatever you like, just put your energy into it.
aww Jess just wanted too say I am so sorry for your losses and to say maybe you should consider a bit of counselling to help you with what I'm sure are some strong emotions surrounding these losses.
You should certainly not feel guilty about your first loss. You really deserve to not feel guilty about this anymore. I am sure that beautiful baby would not be wanting his or her beautiful mummy to feeling like this.
Wow jess i had no idea.
You are such a strong person, That took alot of strength to share that with us.
DO NOT feel guilty at all, it is not your fault
Thanks for everyones replies. We had an anniversary few weeks ago and usually i'm down all day but i said my little bit in the morning lit my candle let it burn all day... Was weird cos the candle was flickering all day...
i know it sounds weird but i fels like i had extra strength that day. and i really need some of that lately...
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hun. so sorry to hear of your losses. I will light a candle for your angels. xo
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