Today I will remember...

[Willow]

Today, the day you were to be born, I will remember you my little angel.

I will remember the excitement and disbelief when I saw those two lines. And I will remember the almost instant fear for you. Did I doom you from the start?

I will remember the joy and relief of seeing your little heart fluttering on the screen. I will remember thinking that maybe I was wrong and everything was going to be OK for us.

I will remember the names I had picked for you, the dreams and the hopes for your future.

I will remember the instant love, although at times disguised by fear.

I will remember the day my whole world fell apart, the day my deepest fears were confirmed.

I will remember the birth of your sister and I will greive that I will never get that day with you...the grief will almost overwhelm me....

Today I will hold your sister's little hand in mine and know that my other hand will always feel a little empty, but my heart will not.

Today I will remember you my beautiful baby....