nomorepain

I am so sorry for your loss.
It is heartbreaking enough to go though that, then have to deal with all these other feelings thrown in too.
It is so normal to not want to see your SIL. I had the same feelings.
When my sister was pg with her last 2 it was so hard and hurtful . A part of me was happy for her, and happy that her lifes road was going the way she wanted. But it was a constant reminder of that my life was not. it was sooo hard seeing the new born babies. And to be honest it still is very hard seeing new borns. I think you need to follow your heart and do what you feel right at the time. You do need to look after your heart too.

IVF is not an easy road to go down. For me it really was not the question of weather or not I was ready to do IVF, it was- was I ready to do anything I can to be a mother.
You have to do what is right for you.

Sending you many hugs!