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    Default We lost our Beautiful Angel

    Hi I'm only new to this forum.

    Chloe Jade- Our IVF Miracle

    On Friday 27th Jan I was taken to hospital by ambulance with major cramps that was thought to be a urinary track infection. I was lying there for 4 and a half hrs before a Dr came to see us. I was given meds and sent home with no ultrasound nothing. I rung my Obs who was p*ssed that they didn't do a Ultrasound, so he arranged one. On my way down I felt a pop and a gush of water and when I got out of the car it ran all down my legs. It was my waters breaking with no explanation at 14wks & 5 days.

    They did the ultrasound and I had a leak, but there was still a heartbeat.
    They rung my Obs who told us which way it could go but cause there was no pain and no blood I was to go on total bed rest for the weekend and I was to come in and see him on Mon and he would ring me over the weekend. My tummy had gone from 102.5 cm to 94 then over the weekend it had gone to 98 so we were hopefull that it may have sealed. The ultrasound today showed there was no amniotic fluid at all but bubs still had a heatbeat which had destroyed us both, to think our baby is perfectly fine except for the fluid. For the rest of the week we had a scan every second day to see what was happening and by the end of the week we knew we had to make a decission. I had trickles of water coming out of me all week.

    We will be booked in for me to have labour bought on and I will deliever our 16 week old bub. My DH wanted to have a scan on the day or the day before just to make sure we were making the right choice but I just couldn't face to see our Angel with its heart still beating away and to know what I we were about to go through.

    I delivered our Angel on Tues 7th Feb 2006 and she was so beautiful and the nurses were fantastic. We spent over an hour with her and didnt want to let her go but knew we had to. They kept me in over night due to a high temp but I was glad as I felt like she was in the room with me.

    To say it has ripped out our hearts, well its to late we are just so numb and cant believe how life can be so cruel. To take 4 yrs to get here and something that no one can control just happens and can happen at anytime. And the thought of going through all this IVF s#!% again just devestates me.



    Shazz

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    Shazz, I am so sorry for your loss.

    No one should ever have to go through what you have just experienced. Just know that everyone here at BB will be here for you if you want to vent, cry, scream or yell.

    for you Shazz.

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    im so sorry..... i will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

    dont give up..theres still plenty of hope left xxx

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    Dear shazz,

    I am so sorry for your loss. How strong you are to make such a heart wrenching decision.

    There is very little I can say to make you feel any better right now. Only that I totally relate to your pain. Please dont bottle anything in. We are all here for you if you needs to talk.

    I am thinking about you and sending you so many hugs

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    Shazz
    I am so sorry for the loss of your precious daughter ~Chloe Jade~.
    I know you from TLC already. It is so, so heartbreaking after a long and difficult IVF journey.
    My heart reaches out to you.I hope and pray the future holds much happiness in regards to more children ~in time.
    Draw on your great personal strength as you continue this journey. You are the proud mother of a beautiful daughter. [-o<
    Trish
    "~♥~ DD Charlotte Rose 1/9/04 26wks ~♥~"

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    Oh Shazz - such a sad story. It was a horrible thing to go through, and I hope that we can help you in some way on this site.
    Welcome to BB

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    big hugs to you. I am so sorry for your loss

    xoxo

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    Shazz sweets,
    The people you run into, I'm here for you.
    Chloe is has touched your life in so many ways, you will find such wonderful support here!
    Bec & Eliza

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    Hi Shazz,

    I am so terribly sorry for your loss of your little girl. :hugs: My heart goes out to you and DH at this terrible time.

    I had to give birth to our son when I was 18 weeks pg, we heard his hear beat an hour before and it was so hard to know that no matter what I did he was still going to come and there was no way he would survive. No parents/s to be should have to go through this heartbreaking loss.

    Please know we are all here for you if you ever need to chat.

    Take Care of yourself and welcome to BB.

    Love
    Kazz
    xoxox

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    Dear Shazz, my deepest thoughts & sympathy are with you & your DH at this terrible time.

    I delivered my second son at 18w5d after suffering two amniotic fluid leaks, one approx 10days before & the second one just 2days before I delivered him. Like you an ultrasound the afternoon before he was delivered showed a perfectly strong little heart beating away madly & bubs wriggling all over the place, but with no fluid our little man stood no chance of his lungs developing enough to keep him alive. Like you after he was born I spent ages with him, held him for about an hour after he was born & then had him again for about 3hrs in the morning before they took him away to do the autopsy. We also had chromosomal testing done to make sure that what happened to him was nothing that would happen again if we were ever to decide to try again for another baby, all tests came back perfectly normal & that in itself was heartbreaking. A huge part of me wished that they had of found something wrong so that that could have been blames instead of a great big question mark as to why it all happened.

    If you ever need someone to talk too please feel free to email me anytime you like.

    Again huge hugs to you & your husband.

    Kirsty

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    Shazz, I feel for you in your decision and what has happened.
    The IVF is hard, and then to have it ripped from you like it was is just soooooo gut wrenching & unfair.
    Take care & know that there are people to talk to about anything & everything. M/c are sometimes the hardest things to get out.

    Having my own m/c after IVF this week I am very much in the 'frustrated' stage feeling that you go through so much to get pg, only then to get teased with a positive, and then it ripped away.

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    Shazz,

    I'm so sorry for your loss. IVF is a road many of us are familiar with and each victory is so hard won, it is so agonising to think of that being taken away.

    Please come back to BB as often as you feel you need to. There are many lovely ladies here who have been through terrible times and they are a marvellous support when you need it.

    Love,

    Mel

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    Shazz, Welcome to BB, I am so sorry for your loss, big hugs to you and DH, Chloe will always be a very special little girl close to your hearts.

    Take Care

    Dee

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    Shazz,
    I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. Take care of yourself and DH. :hugs:

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    dear shazz

    I'm so so sorry for your loss no one should have to go through what you and DH have gone through. Believe me you will heal in time, talk cry rant rave do what ever it takes to let it all go we are all here for you, you can email if you need. Chole Jade will always be with you always.

    thinking of you
    love and hugs
    kath

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    Shazz, i am so sorry to hear of the loss of your beauitful little girl ~Chloe Jade~.

    I know nothing i can say will make you feel any better or help ease your pain but please know that my thoughts are with you and your DH during this difficult time.

    Take care Leah

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    OMG i cannot find the write words to express how deeply sorry i feel for you and your family..

    Im so sorry.. sending you out lots of support and hugs..
    if you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me or email me.. Im so sorry

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    I am soo sorry for your loss i just have to reach in and give you a huge hug

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