No matter how small they are, they are still our angel babies, and you have every right to be sad, hurt, upset, confused and everything else you are thinking and feeling.
We also had an unexpected pregnancy and it was at a really inconvienient time for us financially. We had a missed miscarriage and only found out when I was at the Dr's looking for the heart beat. I tried to think of everything that would have caused my angel baby to leave us including me getting very upset, the stress of an unexpected pregnancy and everything. But really there is almost no way of know why it happened. I let myself grieve up until the baby would have been due and then tried to move forward.
Even now I still get sad about our lost angels, but I have one beautiful daughter and another bubs on the way. Focus on your little ones, DD's hugs were the best cure for me.
Hun a fair few of us have been there. I was there mid last year. Please know you are not alone and you are well within your rights to grieve this precious angel that was too perfect for this Earth. Sometimes there is no reason for them to leave us, sometimes they just need to come and be with us for such a fleeting time. You did nothing wrong hun.
You have posted before that pregnancy can reduce the severity of your Px so maybe once you feel that you have reached a weight you are more comfortable with is a more realistic goal, and your Px may be easier to get under control immediately after a pregnancy.
As for flushing it away hun, I did it too. There is not much else you can do when it is so tiny as to need a microscope to see the actual Embie.
Sweetheart, if you need to talk, PM me or click the little blue guy at the top of my post for MSN.
bec im soo sorry, like i have said to you today, im here for you..
you did nothing wrong for this to happen, bubs just didn't feel it was their time to come and meet you, but they will always be tehre watching over you and they will help you through your next pregnancy..
i totally understand how your feeling, i have been there myself and its terrible you just try to find something to blame when in total fairness there is noone to blame. and thats what makes it so hard to understand.
you are so strong for being there and working today, and its that strength that will get you through this, dont be ashamed to cry, or to show your anger over this its only natural and is part of teh greiving process. i should really listen to my own advice sometimes lol but hey its no fun telling yourself all teh nursy stuff lol
focus on your goal and then when your happy in yourself your little bubba will hold on tight and join you in the journey of life.
You are a brave woman to soldier on and work today. I had a missed m/c and had a d&c. I recall the day after passing a clot and having to flush it. I cried so much after that even though in my mind my baby had already gone. Nothing really makes this easy to get through apart from allowing yourself to grieve, giving yourself time and the help of your loved ones (an BB members) who are hear to listen and offer support.
to you
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