Lisa, that was such a sad, sad story yet so beautifully written & so brutally honest that it touched me deeply. You are a brave woman & I pray with all my might that you get the beautiful dark, curly haired blue eyed baby in the very near future. I know what you have had to go through & it is comforting to know we are not alone. I will be keeping an eye out for you in the threads & wish you & DH all the best.