I never realised how much I missed out on with Brendan until I had Tristan. Even though Tristan was still prem his journey was so much different to Brendan's and I've bonded so much better with him. Brendan was very touch and go as to whether he'd make it, I was told several times to prepare for the worst, with Tristan there was never ever that doubt that he may not make it.

With Brendan, he had so many issues I was afraid to get attached to him just in case he didnt make it. Even after coming home from hospital I still couldn't bond with him properly.... I never realised it at the time, only now after having Tristan have I realised just how much Brendan's birth has affected me.

I feel sad that I feel more for Tristan than what I ever did with Brendan.

How did you find bonding with your premmie?