it goes away with time. you need to give yourself plenty of time.

it wasnt your fault that she came when she did! the body does strange things sometimes. i know its hard not to blame yourself. i still battle most days with "if i hadnt agreed with my ob to deliver DS that day, how much longer could i have held on". i know that if they hadnt have delivered DS that night he wouldnt be here and big chance that i wouldnt be either. its so hard not to blame yourself. are you seeing a counsellor at all?

i wish i was there standing right next to you so i could give you the biggest hug right now. i have tears just thinking of it!

please dont be so hard on yourself. it was the best thing for both you and your little girl for her to be delivered when she was.

big big big