hey everyone just wanted to thankyou for understanding how difficult things can get.
unfortunately my parents live 3 hrs away and yes a break is definantley on the cards pretty soon. i don't trust my mother in law all that much and she lives 5 min away. there have been times when hbby and i just wanted to have a nice dinner out and MIL goes to bed at 8pm and won't come to our house to babysit(upsets her routine) so i said to hubby that without a support network our relationship is fast going down the toilet. I really need to unwind and feel female again, not just a mum.that came out badly but i think you get my drift. I love my kids to bits and am fiercely protective but... jst lately have wanted to be on my own and feel resentful that the kids are around. That sounds so selfish and I am guilt ridden for thinking this. I've been wondering if the whole hospital experience has somehow caught up with me because as you know you are on auto pilot most of the time concentrating on getting your babe home. Even when i came home it was tough, always worrying about their health, the impact on your other children becos you were not there for them alot. (this is my experience anyway) god I'm rambling. Do you think this could be delayed shock? i think I need help.