Janie, so glad to hear that D is doing so well that you both may even be home now. A true Superstar!!

I was very nervous about bringing Angus home as like Sally's Brendan, he also had issues with Apnoea particularly when being tube fed. He was also on oxygen for 14 weeks and they wanted to send him home only 2 days after it was ceased. I refused and insisted that I would not walk out of the SCN until he had successfully been off oxygen for more than a week. The funny thing was when I finally got him home I felt lost, there was no more expressing or numerous trips to the hospital each day and I really missed the daily interaction with all the staff, after 15 weeks I felt like part of the family. I was now confined to the 4 walls of my house and didn't venture outside much. Not like the homecoming after the birth of my other 2 children but I was very thankful that I finally had him home. I never thought that I would ever see the day.

I don't know if you ever get over it...I still voice my anger at women who complain when they are 37 week pregnant and just want it over with. To lose 15 weeks of pregnancy has scarred me for life. I missed the best 15 weeks of pregnancy feeling your baby kicking in side of you, watching your belly grow it's just amazing but so are these tiny little prems that come into the world!

At time of discharge, I promised the staff that whenever I was in the building that we would come and visit. Every time I run into a staff member I breakdown in tears. I can't even read his discharge summary without falling in a heap (just like now). I don't know if it's everything that happened or that I am so grateful that he is here with us today. Maybe it's the combination of both.

Today Angus had an appointment with the NICU follow-up clinic. The Paed that was assessing him was the one that first spoke to us when I was admitted at 24 weeks. He had the difficult job of telling us what was to be expected as well as give us the option to resuscitate and medically assist at birth or the unthinkable to let him pass. Well, there was no way I was giving up on this tiny life and that's what we told him that very emotional day. Today the smiles on these Paeds faces was amazing, they were so proud of my little man and how far he has come and hearing the words from their mouths that they have no concerns at all once again bought me to tears.