thank you so much ladies. it makes me feel better knowing that its normal and not me being silly.

i get asked all the time at the moment whether we are going to have another one and i reply with not sure, scared to get pregnant again. most people are saying that i am being silly for thinking that way and i should just get over it.

i had a friend say the other day that she thought me not watching anything on NICU/SCN babies and being scared was just plain stupid as Hamish wasnt that bad when he was born. easy for her to say, she had an all natural labour and low risk pregnancy! plus she got to go home with her baby after 24 hours. i dont think people truly understand unless they have been where you are.

your kind words mean so much and i thank you all from the bottom of my heart