well, still no af and getting all BFN's. But this morning I have been crying non stop over nothing really. I feel like I don't know my body anymore and I hate not knowing what is going on. Before the IUD and the mini pill, I knew when I O'd and I knew when I was pg with Jess. I knew when something was up. Now I am just confused all the time and I hate it. I hate that if I am pg, it will mean our plans change and I basically stuff things up for us. Even is my new employer will let me keep the job and work untill I am 38wks! I hate that I feel like such a failure atm.... I keep thinking I am going to lose DH as I am sure he doesn't want a depressed wife, but atm I can't help it! I hate myself.