well, still no af and getting all BFN's. But this morning I have been crying non stop over nothing really. I feel like I don't know my body anymore and I hate not knowing what is going on. Before the IUD and the mini pill, I knew when I O'd and I knew when I was pg with Jess. I knew when something was up. Now I am just confused all the time and I hate it. I hate that if I am pg, it will mean our plans change and I basically stuff things up for us. Even is my new employer will let me keep the job and work untill I am 38wks! I hate that I feel like such a failure atm.... I keep thinking I am going to lose DH as I am sure he doesn't want a depressed wife, but atm I can't help it! I hate myself.
God Kerrie, your poor darl. .
You sound exhausted to me. I do know where your coming from though as youve been in my posts. I hated the mini pill as i didnt feel signs of ovulating with it either. The month i went off it though i fell. (not what you want to hear atm, sorry). I think the pill plays havoc with your body.
I think you should go and talk to Dh and release it off your chest. It is his problem to so as they say 'a problem shared is a problem halved'. Im sure he will be very supportive and it may even be a relief to know whats been going in the last couple of days.
Those digital tests that bliss suggested more accurate? I didnt even know they existed. But maybe if they are spot on it would be worth trying one of those. Unless you have already.
Good luck and try not to stress. Have a glass of wine or something.
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