Oh sweet Janie big cuddles... I really really really get what you are saying. I had similar with my four at home when I would go home for breaks. Mostly it was DD14 she was nightmarish whilst I was in hospital as all the attention was away from her...

You are going to get through - just do it however it is you can honey. Your son is playing up because it's a big change & Mama is not as available. You know that - but just hear that you are feeling very very normal & behaving very very normally. It's a stressful, anxious & exhausting time.

I remember so well the 2nd hourly over 24 hours pumping... I feel so much for you honey... Remind yourself that this is your gift to your baby - and your other son had this gift too. Now it's this baby's time & that beautiful milk is his way to a healthful beginning. Janie he looks so so so beautiful your baby Daniel! He is so yummy! You grow gorgeous boys!

Thankyou for your text - I am exhausted here - just keeping it together. DD14 is still quite ill & very very time consuming... Lucy still has sutures & her wound has broken down - it was a high possibility due to the depth and nature of the lac but still it's so upsetting for anal me! Not to mention my poor little Lucy who is such a tough little engine. Of all my kids (aside Immy) she's the toughest... *sigh*

I feel wrung out and beached right now... I would love a fairy to land and grant me 3 wishes...

BBL