I'm sorry guys I didn't want to post about this... but I'm really struggling a bit today and just need to get this out... I know the timing is bad but I don't know where else to turn. I'm finding everything a bit difficult, not only becuase of the terrible, terrible news from Mako but because yesterday was one of my angels EDD's (the one I lost in August). I knew it was going to be a tough time for me, particularly because I wanted to be pg so badly by this time (and obviously I am but it's still not confirmed, so it's not making me feel any better... if anything it's worse)!! I just feel like it's all getting on top of me and of course being over here.. away from my family.. is making it seem so much worse.

Sorry, I just had to get that out.

Kel xx