Spring - hugs sweetheart - I think I know pretty well how you are feeling and what you are saying - kind of giving yourself permission to keep the "good bits" of Harry, and letting go some of the intense grief - I think you are making the right choice babe. Current DH told me after we lost Luc "the best revenge is to live well".... it's pefect for you at the moment hon, and good advice for all of us. One day at a time on the next part of your journey, Harry lives on in your heart, he truly does, and always will.
Michelle - oh babe, you are still in such a raw state. And loosing your husband, partner, mate, best friend - it's complete devastation and requires a full re-build.... these things will take years, I hate to say. But you know that. Finding the pearls in amongst the crud is paramount to keeping you sane and on track. Getting time out is paramount too. I know it's horrible and I know it's hard. I wish to god you were not having to experience this kind of pain and grief, it's so all consuming..... you know I'm always here when you need to talk my darling xoxo
Hi Jayne and Bek, Janie, Kelly, BW, Mako.... bit tired myself atm, in desparate need of a break - but that won't be on the cards for a little while yet, DH back the end of November. Just not feeling very chatty right now due to not having much fuel left in the tank.... but could not ignore the posts of such beautiful women.... I wish I lived closer to both of you.
Much love to all, and hi Deb if you're out there, how r u doing?
Just had to post some good news in here...........
My SIL has just delivered a beautiful baby girl via caesar. Lacey Skyla. I'm so excited for them & so incredible homesick right now because I just want to be right there amongst it...........
I hope the news isn't upsetting to anybody, I just wanted to share.
Jayne that is wonderful news about your new niece. I love her name too btw...A few friends of ours have little girls named Lacey
How's everything going in China? Are the girls still loving it?
Oh and I don't think happy news like that is ever a bad thing in here although I don know where you're coming from
Jayne - keep posting the happy stuff because right now I've got nothing
Mako - thank you for thinking of us. I shouldn't have done it DS is sooooo not coping. Acting out because he is scared I am going to leave too. Going to the cemetery for the blessing of the graves brought back a whole pile of memories for him. As a consequence I got to hear almost none of it and just cried near the grave because the clingon couldn't give me any space. I am physically, emotionally and spiritually exhausted and I needed today so much for me but instead I got to manage the fallout yet again. This is just crud
Oh Michelle I am so so so lost for words. So wanting to say something to "help" you & it's just not coming. I wish I could take away the pain. I am sorry I can't. But know I love you, cherish you & that I will always be there for you.
"Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it." ~Helen Keller
You will overcome this darling woman - little by little, step by step, sometimes the steps will go backwards - sometimes they will go forwards. One day you will look back & say "I survived, I am happy, I am whole & I did it"... When you do we will all still be here for you, meeting up in some random city, sharing cheese, wine, tears, hugs, laughter & maybe even "jam donuts"... But we will be there... God willing.
Oh Michelle I know nothing I can say will help ease your pain or little O's pain and fear I sooooo wish this wasn't the way things are right now for you guys. I will also send you lots of massive
Oh beautiful Michelle, I only just read this. Oh sweetheart, I know how much you needed this today, and the effort it takes to get you and the 3 babes there, only to be (short-changed is the wrong word, because it was your wee man than needed you) but you know what I mean.... highlights again how much you need to be able to get some time to yourself too, that backlog of grief ain't going to hold much longer, and I feel helpless to help you from here.... do you think you could ask the priest/father to bless Greg's grave again, with just you alone - or spend some time with him there at Greg's side? I'm so sorry beautiful lady that you have so effing much to deal with - it's so incredibly hard dealing with the grief of young children, atop of your own. Just know I'm here, we all are here - and I reckon a dozen or so jam doughnuts would go down a bl--dy treat right now! We will not let you go under babe, you are not alone, you are loved by us and so many. Greg is there for you too, try and see his smile. All the love and hugs in the world coming right at you, Lee xo
Oh Michelle... sending you heaps of massive hugs hun. I wish there was something I could say... I'm also lost for words and feel totally useless. Just know you're not alone, we're all here for you and know how tough this is for you. Thinking of you constantly.
Michelle - I am so sorry and wish there was something I could do to help you through this. I want you to know that I think of you and the little ones often, even if we don't speak much anymore. I hope you are feeling better today.
Spring - I think you're amazing and although yours is not a path I have travelled, I believe you have made a very wise decision - I hope it brings you much happiness and peace. I think there comes a time when you are ready
Last edited by Willow; November 3rd, 2010 at 02:44 PM.
Oh Michelle - I'm so sorry that the blessing didn't go as you had hoped/needed it to. Lee had a wonderful suggestion though........ something to consider? Have you given any more thought to what we spoke about, the something entirely his of Greg's?
Mako - Lacey was actually a name that I quite like myself, but thankfully for me, the no babies on the agenda meant I wasn't gutted. lol. It's a very pretty name, I'm not overly fond of the Skyla, but stil!
Kelly - 8 days my love! My aus mobile works, just so you know........ lol
Willow - How's the little guy?
Lee - How are you going? I feel for you being so exhausted! The new bike still getting a workout?
BW _ Glad you're popping in here!
Bun - How's the home tidy ups going?
Spring - How's the name thing going? Had a thought of 'Cherished Angel'?
Pash - Haven't 'seen' you in a while!!!
Lisa - Hello???
Janie - Damn no fb in China!!! Where are you woman!
Big hello's to anybody I have missed - completely NOT intentional! Am just getting over my first home sick day that I had yesterday. Lacey's arrival stirred up more than a bit of excitement in my little heart, but now I'm coming back to normal!
Where are you off to Willow? Are you moving house? Miss V changing schools? you know what, it's the best thing I ever did taking Jess out of her school in Aus.
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DS is sooooo not coping. Acting out because he is scared I am going to leave too. Going to the cemetery for the blessing of the graves brought back a whole pile of memories for him. As a consequence I got to hear almost none of it and just cried near the grave because the clingon couldn't give me any space. I am physically, emotionally and spiritually exhausted and I needed today so much for me but instead I got to manage the fallout yet again. This is just crud
I wish so bad that I could take away your pain.
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