Am I horrid or right on standing my ground

[*Efjay*]

Ah we just had a crap morning AGAIN...

Every morning Evan will fart around & change his mind about breakfast & catching the bus to school. I usually end up very stressed out by the time I get him to school.

This morning was no different bar the fact I was a *****. He got up happy enough, I got him dressed (see if I don't physically dress him it doesn't happen) he came out ready for breakfast & plenty of time to catch the bus (as he wanted to catch it this morning)
So DH is making his lunch & Evan sooks as he doesn't want cheese on his sandwich.
Then he says he wants toasted cheese sandwich for breakfast (I didn't hear this) but then says he wants Nutragrain. No worries I am feeding Iain but make his & Glenns breakfast with the last of the milk. Evan was told seems there is little milk & Glenn asked first if there isn't enough milk for both to have cereal then Glenn gets it.
*First chance to say I don't want it*
He sooks about that & I say No its ok I should have enough for both of you
*second chance to say I don't want it*
So I make it & asked DH to take it to them seems I am juggling a baby at the breast. (this is a side vent) who then huffs & puffs because he was making sandwiches.. Gees, how hard is it to stop for 2 seconds & pass the bowls to the kids

When DH gives Evan the bowl he sooks that he didn't want nutragrain SH & I both go off at him at the same time. I go on saying that he has to eat it, Im sick of him wasting food & that that was the last of the milk & someone else could have had it. I make him sit there & say he either eats it or goes to school hungry.
He starts about not wanting to catch the bus I yell at him that too bad I am not driving him today & he is catching the bus.
After about 5 minutes he still hasn't eaten & Glenn is finished. For some reason breakfast is a race (no matter how many times I have said not to "race" & Glenn pipes up about winning. Evan yells at him thats its not a race & Glenn gets upset & goes to toss his bowl that still had milk in it. So Grab it before he can & also take Evans bowl. As I do the rat turned & pushed the bowl up at me sending milk & nutragrain all over the floor. I loose it & he gets a smack & told to clean up the mess. He sits there on the floor crying & wont clean it up so I tell him he either cleans it up or the motorbike toy at my feet goes in the bin.

I end up tossing the toy & cleaning the floor. I then put his shoes on his feet & sent him to sit on the veranda till DH was ready to take him to the bus.
I offered him some toast whihc he didn't take so I made him a extra sandwich & put it in his bag & told him him to eat it once he gets to school.

I totally overreacted to the situations & now feel like a horrid mother. I would have made Evan feel terrible, I sent him to school with no breakfast & in tears. I also told him to catch the bus home.

Now I am sitting here in upset & wanting to head up to the school to make sure he ate & is ok. But know that I shouldn't.
He carries on like a brat & gets away with it more often then not & I am sick of it. Before DH left for work he also had a go at me for over reacting & blowing it out of proportion.

Yes I was a ***** about it all but The kid needs to learn. Every morning its a **** fight of some extent to get him to school. I hate having to get everyone in the car for a 5 minute trip. Glenn hates going & Isla hates not being able to run all over the school. Iain is wanting a feed/sleep right at the time I need to leave & its just too much to have to do it every morning when the bus stop is our driveway. Im so over the morning thing. I have crap all to wear so I am forever hunting for something to put on, I have to get myself & 4 kids dressed as none of them will do it themself & Im getting out the door later & later each day.

I want to be able to put him ont he bus & hang out that load of washing early rather then leave before its finished & not get to hand it out till about 11 or later given when I get back from the school I have to sort out Iain & just not do anything really to unwind from the morning of getting ONE child off to school on time!

But someone please tell me that sending him with n o breakfast & on the bus was ok to do..... Have I scared him for life?


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