Hugs hun couldn't read & not post.
One thing I am wondering is could it be diet? (yes, and this comes from me, wouldn't want to show anyone my cupboards atm) but even healthy foods, fruits etc can affect behaviour. Green apples, I think, for example.... Might be one thing to look at, anyway.
I hope things ease for you soon, I completely understand the need for a break, don't feel bad for it