You all have such wonderful words to share.

Arcadia, you asked what I feel I'm lacking. When I think about it, I realise that although a full night sleep would be nice, I don't feel exhausted, so it's not sleep. I think I've just got sucked into the thinking that somehow I will ruin all hope of my son sleeping properly. It's always encouraging to hear how different everyone's children are as a reminder that the "typical" mentioned in books often just doesn't apply. I'm quite ok with the lack of routine and putting my son's needs first. We've waited a while for this child and I never thought my life would be the same once he was here But I get what you're saying.

Kim, I can promise you that I haven't been wasting my money on the magazines...our library stocks a wide variety of them and I might just have to be a bit more selective about the ones I take out. I do enjoy other articles in them.

Danni, I feel for you. I've had a few nights like that and am absolutely shattered in the morning! I take my hat off to you and your boundless energy to keep going!!

Fleur, yes, overwelmed is the feeling. I shall try to sift more fully

Cranky Kitten, yes, way too much time to think when awake half the night and by 3am the thoughts can wander off to dangerous places of self doubt...