I never bonded with my middle child and still haven't 7 years on.
Tbh most days I can't stand him. I resent having to do everything for him I hate that because of his autism he acts like a 3 yr old most of the time .
He has no impulse control is terrible at socializing he can't follow instructions.
He gets better and worse.
Right now he's worse. Constant issues at school constant issues with food and diet.
I'm finding it hard to be nice to him let alone bond with him.
We have therapy together already but it's more to help him with issues. I've mentioned I struggle to cope and they suggest respite care

I don't know what to do.... I'm not sure I even want to bond with him. He irritates me to the core. I feel like an awful mum to not want to be around their own child.