oh I so related to your story just now. We just had to do the same thing last month with one of our dogs. Same thing, she was old and couldn't walk. We thought she'd have to be put down the week that we got home from hospital with DD and I was just an emotional mess. Fortunately, the vet was able to help her and we got another 3 months to be with her. It's never easy saying goodbye to a loved family pet and so many people without pets won't know what you're going through. My MIL didn't say a word the next time she visited and a lot of people asked how our other dog was going (yeah, what about us??). I'm really sorry that you're having to say goodbye. I chickened out at the vet and left DH with our gorgeous girl and the vet as I just couldn't watch. I guess everybody is different. Will be thinking of you on Thursday and sending you lots of strength and love.