We moved to brisbane late last year as my mum wasa diagnosed with cancer and we wanted to be nearer her, she ended up dying in Decemeber and i can totally relate to what you have been saying.
I did at least have mum for those early months of my son's life but its not the same, i want her here sharing it all with me now, and i see woman out shopping with their mums etc and i am jealous, i want it to be me.
I haven't found a playgroup that i was comfortable with yet...but its really good to know there are others who understand.