Sarahrach - ah sweetie, it's awfully draining the first few weeks, hence this post! I felt up and down and happy and sad and excited to be pregnant but at times I wanted not to be as well as I knew the journey ahead was going to be soooo long and soooo hard. But as the time goes on, the crappy days are outweighed by the better days as the news slowly sinks in and things progress. My scariest time is almost upon me, with my 19 week scan. I feel sick about it but am doing my best to remain calm. And if ONE MORE PERSON tells me that stress is bad for the baby I'm going to thump them! As if I like feeling uptight and worried!!!

So you are doing the right thing by putting one foot in front of the other. It's not a fun journey, after loss, but I'm sure at the end we'll know it was worth it. Big hugs and if you want to talk more, let me know.

Mummylion - thanks for your reply and for your reassurance! It's funny having stress of pregnancy after loss and then having the normal fears any other mother has, like how will i ever manage with two. When I wrote that post my DS was going through a crazy stage, very angry and out of sorts and just had this behavior I didn't know what to do with. He's settled down and has been so lovely again which makes things easier. It's certainly a rollercoaster this game of motherhood!!!