hey all, just a quick one, saw my OB on friday, all seems well & OB says she looks like a good sized baby. Looks like i'll be induced about 38/39 weeks, last labour was 1.5 hours & it takes 2 hours to get to the hospital, so OB wants to start me off in hospital.
jlk, so glad that your appt. went well, what a milestone. I just saw your ticker!!!! you are moving right along. I think induction is a good idea! I wouldn't want to have a bub in the car either :)
JLK - AWESOME!!! I am so happy for you. I agree, start off in hospital - no way would I want the stress of even the risk of a birth in the car. And just imagine having to clean the car up - well you'd be in hossy so that would be one for someone else.
Laney - thought I had replied to you.... sorry about the delay... another Dory moment. I have been off work since 15 Feb on medical advice. I am not on strict bed rest, but I pretty much rest most of the day. I can do some smal things, for which I am thankful for. I am ever mindful that if I do too much I could end up in hossy on strict bed rest and I am hoping to avoid that, but have repared for it nonetheless. Good to see you moving along in your pregnancy. 17th May is not that far away. How are you coping?
AFM - I have bounced back and am not so melancholy, but its a bit surreal at the moment. I keep imagining as if these are my last days/weeks of this pregnancy, and that history will repeat itself. My next scan on 4 May is exactly the same gestation that Sophie was when she entered the world. It will be both nice to have reassurance that things are going well ( if they are) on that day, but it's also a bit scary to, thinking about what might go wrong. I just have a deep sense of foreboding that things will repeat but at the same time I also have a really strong fundmental belief they won't and I vacilate between the two. It's very confusing and tiring, to be honest. How can we feel so many conflicting emotions? It's almost like I am a walking contradiction.
I am 19 weeks tomorrow. How cool is that?
Dory, good luck with your up coming scan. I know very well the feelings that you are having. With Grayson, I just couldn't bring myself to believe that he was coming home. I felt positive that I was doing the right thing with the blood thinner injections. It was impossible to get over the feeling that I was going to lose him at any moment. It did get a tiny bit easier when I could feel him moving all day. If he even stopped for a second I was poking at him to get him to move more.
I am very surprised that I have been coping much better this time around. It does help that Grayson keeps me very busy. I think that it also helps that I am not suffering from the depression that I had since Parker's death. I do find myself getting a bit emotional this week. I think that is because Shelby's 2nd angel day and Parker's 3rd are both very soon. I do have my moments when I feel like a crazy lady again too. I think that is because in 6 weeks I have my big scan. The scan when they told me that Parker and Shelby were not doing well. I am trying hard to stay positive. My high risk doctor always told me that the odds are in my favor so I am trying to tell myself that.
Hi ladies,
Dory and Laney, so glad that everything is going well with you ladies. 19 weeks Dory, woohoo!
Jlk, yay for your OB app. going well!
Hello to everyone else, sorry don't have much energy to post. Still struggling with the sleep deprivation, but getting better. My wee man was 6 weeks yesterday, where does the time go??? Feel like a zombie today :o
B xxx
Hello Everyone!!
Just another quickie from me.. the move is well and truely on.. DH has been working full time now signed all the forms, and we are staying in canberra with relatives frantically house hunting!! Its all happening! I have also made contact with the antenatal clinic here at a hospital called Calvary and i see them in a week to book in so they know i am here. I also still have my other booking back in VIC just in case!! CRAZY TIMES!!!
DOES ANYONE KNOW OF ANYONE RENTING A HOUSE OUT IN CANBERRA?? LOL I am madly getting references together and applying for everything and anything i can!!!
Baby wise- i am feeling good- belly is expanding at a rapid rate and she is moving like crazy!! I m being too busy to think any bad crazy thoughts, and i will admit i feel lot better being in the same town as a hospital!!
Sorry to be so slack in here- my thoughts are with you all and hopefully once i am settled down i will be a better poster :)
Take care everyone!!!
Big Belly Rubs and tickles to all the new bubbas!!
Starbright - you sound so positive and organised. I hope you find some digs soon. I don't have any Canberra connections.....
KAM - how are you doing?
Laney - You are doing so well. I can so feel your fear and axneity leading up to the next few mnths, so many dates of significance. Thankyou for your kind and understanding words - they helped a lot. I think itsprobably good to be distracted by Grayson. I find when I am distracted it is easier to cope. That's why weekends are so good for me.
Beata - Oh wow, our little knight in shining armour - aka Cameron - is 6 weeks old, already! It must be just so amazing, sleep deprivation and all. How long between feeds at the mo? Is he getting more into something that might look like a routine, even if only 3 hours between feeds?
JLK - I just re read your post and it struck me. Your ob is talking about labour! How awesome.
Hi to anyone else I have missed. I am a bit spacey today. Really hungry at the moment, but don't know what I feel like eating. Oh only 5 more sleeps til my scan on Tuesday.
HI ladies, fantastic news for dory and jlk getting past and close to some milestones, thinking of you girls
sorry for the lack of personals, but wanted to ask starbright, have you got any tips for me on handling it all so well? we are in almost the same boat ie moving, and I feel like i am in meltdown today. we just sold our house on the weekend and may have bought another one (just waiting for confirmation) but everybody has something to say about me moving to the country and its doing my head in, do they not know i am hopefully having a baby in 6 weeks and to talk to me about if and when this bub comes home, cause i really don't need this stress. add on top i had a scan today, dr was happy with scan, but from last scan to this one bubs has dropped about 15% in growth, when really he should have picked up shouldn't he?! oh i don't know, just very teary, maybe its just been a big week, sorry for the vent, but just needed to get it out.
Hi all. I have been missing in action for ages. Apologies, just slack.
Klee, I honestly think that a lot of the later scans where they tell you about the baby's size etc are not accurate. I am always hearing about women saying that their baby was too big to deliver and had a CS and then the baby is born and it is normal size and weight. It sounds like your bub is going well and surely by this stage some are smaller than others - just like when they are born? Anyway I know you must be worried, but I am sending you lots of hugs and positive thoughts. I often feel massively worried after a scan even when the Ob says it is all good, it is like I don't fully believe him. Don't push yourself too much with the move, let others do the lifting and cleaning for you!
Starbright, wow what a move. I hope it all goes very smoothly.
Hi to everyone else, will have to read back through to see what is happening.
As for me, 3 weeks to go! I had an ob appt on Tuesday and the baby was looking good. My ob thinks I will not go early based on Anna being so overdue. I do not want to go too early but anytime from 39 weeks would be good. The baby is a good kicker so that is all very reassuring.
Belly rubs and hugs to all.
Hi Ladies
So for no personals...so stuffed and feeling huge...had last check up wtih Ob yesterday...bub doing great...measuring 2 weeks ahead so should be a good size...feeling so uncomfortable and getting no sleep...2 weeks till c section if nothing happens before...can't wait to have this little one safely earthside :) Have a great weekend everyone xxx
thanks katiegirl, wow 3 weeks to go, my goodness thats gone quick. hope this boy doesn't keep you waiting too long like his sister, will be thinking of you over the next few weeks, hope you get the labour you want.
thanks for your words yesterday think just the state i was in yesterday, if they had of said this baby's going to be huge, i probably would have broke down too! just felt a bit overwhelmed after a big week and it finally all got to me, feeling better now and a bit more sane, sorry again for the outburst ladies
we start weekly ctg's from next week, which is apparently a better indicator than the scan that all is ok, so something else to help me through yaya
Ellie and Katiegirl! You are both so close. I can't believe how fast the time went. I hope that my pregnancy goes just as smooth and FAST!
Klee, The ctg's did put my mind at ease. They did cause a little stress a couple of times but what doesn't for us. I think being 15% smaller is a normal error rate in ultrasounds. If your ctg's look good and he is moving well then he is happy in there.
starbright, you sound very happy about the move. Remember to let everyone else to the work! Being close to family is going to be so great. I am really jealous.
beata, I think things got a bit easier around month 3. I was only getting up once a night. By month 4 Grayson was sleeping all night. I hope that you are just as lucky.
dory, can't wait to read about your great scan.
Okay! Who told the crazy lady that it was okay to visit me?! I decided to get out my old doppler even though I knew that it wasn't working well. It took a fall from the table when I was 9 months pregnant with Grayson and did not worked right after. All I get is static. I keep thinking that it is because there is no HB. I can't help it. I did order a new one but it is taking forever to get here. sigh
YAY! My new doppler arrived today and all is well in my world for another day!
Hi ladies,
Laney, yay for the doppler arriving finally!! I have to admit I got one too, when I was pg with Cameron, every now and then it would come out when he wasn't particularly active...did my head in but it was always re assuring to hear the heart beat. Cameron is waking me up 1 to 2 times during the night. My DF usually does the last feed before bed at around 10.30-11 pm (we're on formula now) so I try going to bed by 9.30 pm. I then get up at around 2-2.30 am and then again around 5-5.30 am. 2 days ago, he slept from 2.30 am until 7 am, I panicked and thought something happened to him only to find him snoring away in his basinette! lol.
I'm glad all is going well in your pg!!
Dory, we have a routine, sort of!! Cam has been able to tell day from night from early on, he always feeds with his eyes closed and half asleep during the night and fully awake and alert during the day. We are always hoping to feed him around 10 pm, 2 am, 6 am, 10 am etc, so far it hasn't been too far off that. He was very unsettled most of this week due to his 6 week growth spurt but he's really improved since yesterday so I'm hoping all is back to normal. He's also begining to smile which is just awsome!
I'll be thinking of you on Tuesday hun, I hope all goes well for you at your scan!!
Klee, wow a lot is happening with you hun!! Don't let these people get to you about moving to the country, everyone will have an opinion and sometimes it's not what we want to hear! I'm sure the move will go well and you'll enjoy your new house/surroundings. As for the bub, don't worry too, as Katiegirl said they often get the size wrong! The weekly ctgs will definitely help the sanity!
Ellie, I feel your pain!! lol. In the last 2 or 3 weeks of my pg, I was so over the pelvic/hip pain and being unable to sleep! When the bub came I was like, put him back in so I can have the crappy but long sleep!! ha ha. Just can't win hey? Can't wait for you litle one to arirve hun!
Katiegirl, wow 3 more weeks! Time has certainly flown by, can't wait for you bub to arrive safely too hun!
Starbright, yay to lots of movement from bub!
Jlk, hope all is well with you hun :p
AFM, things are improving slowly. Cameron is a lot more responsive to me and DF, he makes these cute little noises and is using his arms and legs heaps when he's excited about something. He has got the most cutest facial expressions ever!! Sometimes I have a good laugh, especially when he coughs and farts all at the same time and scares himself! ha ha ha.
Hope everyone has a great weekend, sorry if I missed anyone!
B xxx
beata, It sounds like you are getting some sleep at night. Twice a night feedings aren't too bad. Try to get in a nice nap during the day, they always helped me. I still have some of those panic moments when I am the first one to get up. I am used to him getting me up nice and early.
Ladies, what do you do for angel days? Shelby's angel day is in a couple of weeks and Parker's is shortly after Grayson's B-Day. I was not up for doing anything last year other than sitting around and worrying about Grayson. DH has to work on Shelby's day but he has a nice long weekend (he only has 2 weeks of vacation and he is going to need that when this bub is born). I was thinking about making a little garden...I don't know. What happens to that garden when we decide to sell this house?
Laney - I have started a little collection for each angel baby...mostly 'willow tree' ornaments...teddies I was given etc....and also light a candle at Church...5th May is our first angel baby's due date...tomorrow...I remember all the dates...don't know if that's a good thing or not sometimes.
On a happier note...only 10 days to go...bub is still very busy and doesn't seem to care that there's no room...really hurting me...my ribs are soooo sore! Can't stop cleaning and seem to be functioning on next to no sleep really well...maybe it will be less than 10 days...wouldn't that be lovely :)
Ellie, I do have a collection of ornaments for both of my little angels. Hallmark comes out with a remembering a lost loved one ornament every year. The year we lost Shelby it was a clam shell with a pearl inside. It was so perfect. I also have some willow tree angels. It is nice to have something that you can always look at and remember. I feel like I have to remember all of the dates because no one else will. I have been so emotional the past couple of weeks. I don't know if it the pregnancy hormones or the upcoming BIG scan. I just want to do something special for the dates this year.
It is so exciting that you only have a few days left until you get to meet your second little miracle baby. Are you all ready? Any names picked out?
Dory, How did your scan go? I have been thinking of you. I hope all is okay.
Hi everyone
So emotional today...got through the anniversary of our first angel babies due date...bub was so quiet all day and worried me so much I drank a can of coke just to get him/her moving...then I paid for it all night!!!
My happy news for the day is my missing furkid was found this morning and I've just bought her home...now I'm ready to have bub as we're all home safe together...DH is convinced I will go into labor now she's home :)
Laney - do you believe no names! We have lists...and just when we think we've got one something will come up to put a 'cloud' over it...I think it will be like with Miss A...we knew as soon as we saw her...hope that happens this time!
Have a great day ladies xxx
Hi girls,
I'm sorry I haven't been around lately I've been very busy lately, especially with this baby coming up to the same gestation that we lost Isabel. It means there isn't a week when I'm not either at the doctors, hospital, ultrasound clinic, pathologist, psychologist or a combination of them. On a positive note though I'm now to tired for the nightmares and we got to go away for 2 days this week and I also cut back on work.
Ellie - I'm glad your furkid came home safe and sound, we lost our furbaby just before we lost Isabel (on our wedding anniversary no less) it was horrible.
How is everyone else going?
Hi gals - its good to have a moment to stop and check in. Very unusual for me to be so busy. It made a nice, but tiring change.
Laney - all good here! Thankyou so much for asking. When is your next scan.... hmm no let me remember 17th right? Not long now!
Beata - you make me laugh so much. I have some funny visuals of Cameron scaring himself with his noisy bodily functions. Wow, 6 weeks, so long yet still so tiny. I bet so many things have changed since those first weeks.
KAM - those dates are hard. Know what you mean about lots of appointments. For me its easier though cause I am not at work, and am at home resting, so I am glad of the distractions. Hope you get through ok. My most recent scan date was on the same gestation that Sophie was born and died, so it was a pretty anxious time, leading up to the scan. Go as gently as you can.
Ellie - so glad your little furry one is home. How long were they gone? One of ours escaped once and was gone all night. Of course DH and I were scouring the neighbourhood in the wee hours trying to find him ( I was worried he was hurt somewhere) and low and behold the cheeky monkey came home when he got hungry. I was waiting up for him, thinking the worst and crying. He's an indoor cat and his little adventure scared him so much, he has never really tried to escape again. I can understand that you would have been beside yourself. Just glad your pet s safely home. Good luck with the next week or so. I must be unbelieveably exciting and frustrating all at once.
What date is your caesar booked in for?
Katie girl - you must almost there too! Thinking of you.
Klee - about the scans - I asked the sonogapher and she said the later scans were often not as accurate as the earlier scans in determining bubs size - something to do with bubs developing bone density and the sound waves of the ultra sound not reflecting in ways that allow for super accurate measurements.
StarBright - how are the move preparations going? Did you find somewhere in Canberra?
AFM - I have had a genuinely fantastic and positive week. On Monday night DH felt the baby kick, not just move, for the first time in any of our pregnancies. It was just the most awesome moment. I had been waiting with a lot of anticipation of DH being able to experience it but didn't expect it until a bit later, let alone just before 20 weeks. His face was just priceless - joy, wonder and completely awestruck. He didn't know whether to jump for joy and keep his hand on my belly for more. it was truly a magical moment. A really good lead up to the scan the next day.
Scan went really well. I was more anxious than I realised ( wondered if I had the squirts again, but the urge passed after we saw the baby in the scan....so anxiety it was). It was awesome. No bad news, all good. Baby was very active so the scan went for longer which meant more time to look at bubs. There was a big ole yawn, hands up to the face, kicking, turning, squirming and even a "kung fu panda" karate chop move. No waving, well not that we saw. It was so exciting for me to actually feel the baby moving and seeing the movements on the scan. The sonographer was really good too, she had had a loss at 19 weeks, so we were able to talk about it both of our experiences, which most sonographers don't want to even go near that topic.
Baby has been moving fairly consistently since Monday, in more definite and discernable movements rather than just the flutters.
My mum has been visiting for a few days and hence my abscence from BB. It was so nice to have her visit, but I was so tired last night I was asleep by 8.30pm. Unheard of for me! I did wake at 11.30pm though and spent a few hours awake ( knitting my new hobby - my mum taught me) but the sleep I had for the first few hours was just so deep and refreshing. I feel so much better today.
I am loving the cooler weather - cats are way more snuggly ( although if I get up to go to the loo, I return to find the "warm" sport where I was laying has been stolen by a furbaby, apparently sound asleep in just minutes! It is so much nicer to snuggle with DH under the blankets and make DH late for work by pleading "just one more minute...". Although the little heater inside means I hardly feel the cold and hardly need any blankets.
Anyway, I could go on for ages. It is so nice to feel some hope, just genuine hope and happiness rather than the stuff I force on myself to get through. I don't want to let these feelings go.
Hi ladies,
Laney, I am slowly starting to get slightly longer stretches of sleep these days. Last night, Cameron slept from 12 am to 4 am, but fed at 11 pm so went 5 hours between feeds. He is getting better slowly. Today I took him to the doctor as I thought he had a cold, as he had a blocked nose and he was breathing pretty heavily with a funny noise in his chest, but it turned out to be fine, instead he has a pretty nasty thrush in his mouth. What the???????? How do babies get it? I haven't breastfed for 4 weeks now. I thought babies get thrush from breast feeding :o
Ellie, big hug for your angelversary today. I know those days can be very emotional and tough. Hooray for finding your furkid! I didn't have a name for Cameron either, he was Baby Anderson for a couple of days in hossy! GL for your upcoming birth!
Kam, big hugs hun. When I passed the 21 week mark with Cameron I was sooooo relieved. Every week after that was such a bonus. My psychologist also helped to keep me sane!!
Dory, I am so so happy your scan went well and you are feeling so good about it. About time you really started to enjoy this pg!!! And woohoo for bubs first kicks!! That is the most awsome feeling in the world, isn't it? You are going to laugh at me but I really miss by big belly and my kicks now! I look at pg women now and I'm jealous of their bellies ;)
Hi to everyone else in here, hope everyone is travelling nicely.
B xxx
dory, i got a little worried when you didn't post right after your scan. I am so happy to read that everything was great. Those first movements are so exciting! It was so nice when DH got to feel Grayson kicking. He never experienced that with Parker or Shelby.
beata, I think babies can get thrush anytime. I do believe that it is more common with breastfeeding but just happens sometimes. I hope he is feeling better. Are you still thinking about adding another baby to the mix soon?
Kam, I know how stressful it must be for you right now. I hope your doctors are giving you the extra visits and scans that you need right now to help you stay calm and positive.
Ellie, so sorry that the EDD for your first angel was so hard. I think the stress and worry for your soon to be earth angel #2 adds so much more emotion to these difficult days. I hope you have a nice and restful few days left with bubba inside. Are you already thinking about when you are going to be posting another BFP in here? :)
AFM, a little over a week until my next scan. I am already starting to get very nervous about that 17 week scan. I have no idea how we got this far along already. It has been going fast so far.
Laney - A BFP!@?! Oh my goodness that gave me a good laugh for the morning hehehehe! I couldn't go through the emotional rollercoaster again...wouldn't be fair on the these two little ones...Miss A has been through one pregnancy with me and I think that's more than enough emotional stress for one little girl :)
Have hit that desperate stage now...6 more sleeps...so close yet still so far...terrified that something could still happen to this little one...praying like mad for one healthy baby...nothing to indicate that it won't be but it's not over till it's over...and I'm soooooo ready. Don't know what I would do with out you ladies...thanks so much for listening...again xxx
Sorry for no personals...am reading and following...but just surviving at the moment :)
Hi everyone, :hello:
I was hoping I could join your thread :)
I am about 5 1/2 weeks pregnant after our son was stillborn in February. We conceived after my first AF which was quite a shock but obviously a very welcome one.
Even though I am very happy and relieved to be expecting again, I'm a bit sad that it feels so different this time around. I seem to have no excitement yet, just a nagging anxiety. I have no real symptoms at all yet which obviously makes it harder to accept. I am having a dating scan in about 10 days and I don't think I will really believe it until I see that little flicker!
Dory - it was really wonderful to read your post, I am so happy that you had good news and that you are feeling kicks!
beata - :happybirthday: Hope you had a wonderful day.
Look forward to getting to know you all,
xx
Hi girls,
Laney, I wish I could convince my DF to try again this year (we have to do another full round of IVF as we have no frozen embryos left) but I've brought up the subject a couple of weeks ago and my poor DF almost had a heart attack!!!! Cameron was only 6 weeks old at that stage, and he was like, 'Hello!!!!!!!!!!! you're still whingeing about the lack of sleep with this one and you want ANOTHER one????' Ha ha. I really thought we'd go again towards the end of this year, but it's unlikely. He said next year or the one after! I told him I'm almost 40 (I am now!!) so lets not wait long. See what happens! Every time I see a preggy belly, I want one! GL with your upcoming scan hun, everything will be fine!
Ellie, you're soooooo close now hun!! Can't wait for your announcement! I remember about 3 weeks off giving birth, I was so worried something would still go wrong. A week or so beforehand, I was so desperate to have Cam out!! I thought he would be safer on the outside than on the inside. When he came out screaming the op. theatre down, I was so relieved I cried like a baby. You know everything will be just fine hun, be patient and know that we're all behind you and on the count down!!
CherlieB, helloooooooo lovely girl!!! Welcome to this wonderful thread. I tend to post in this one from time to time and in my baby buddies thread. Congrats on 5 1/2 weeks hun!! Woohoo!!! Don't worry hun, I felt exactly the same when I fell pg with Cameron. I was so excited with Joshua, but scared silly with Cam, always expected for something to go wrong again. I did feel better after my 12 week scan and then after my 22 week scan. When I hit the 30 week mark, I was sooooo relieved! GL with your dating scan hun!!!! And thanks so much for your birthday wishes, I am no longer 30 something! Big cry.......
Hello to all my other lovely friends! Cameron has been so much more settled these days after I started to treat the oral thrush. I have changed him to the previous formula, as the Novolac Colic was giving him really hard poos. We went out for my birthday on Saturday as Sunday would have been full on and people would have been busy with their own things, and after hardly no sleep for almost 8 hours, he was so over tired he was screaming for hours the poor love!! He did catch op on his sleep that night though :p He's now feeding 4-5 hourly, which is great. Off for his 8 week MCHN app. tomorrow. He'll be 8 weeks then!! Woohoo!!!!
B xxx
Charlie, Welcome to our little group. I am so sorry to read about your little boy. What did you name him? Congratulations on falling pregnant again so quickly. The anxiety is unfortunately something that we all feel. We will be here for you when ever you need some extra support.
Ellie, I know exactly how you feel about being so close yet so far away. Even the morning of my c-section I was still worried. The nurse came in to hook me up to the monitors and then proceeded to turn the volume off! She was of course barked at to turn it up so I could hear Grayson's HB. So close now. I can't wait to read the news. Are you on Facebook so I can see some pics when the time comes?
AFM, I am starting to worry. I feel myself not wanting to leave the house as much. I am trying to fight it. I do not want to fall into a depression like I did while pregnant with Grayson.
I hope everyone had a nice Mother's day remembering angel babies, loving earth angels, and rubbing their growing bellies.
Laney - Thankyou so much for your support by thinking of me and worrying. It seems we all do a LOT of worrying in here. Not long now til your scan. You're right - time has flown, but it doesn't feel that way when you are living each moment though. I hope that you are able to fight off the depression, I guess it is a worrying sign that you are feeling like you want to just withdraw. Is there a chance of you going to a Dr or a counsellor? Just someone else that you can touch base with that might have some different ideas or strategies to help you through. I think it's a really positive sign that you've been down that road before and have decided you don't want to do it again. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help. I often wonder if I will get depression in this pregnancy. I am at home, mostly on bed rest, mostly alone, cut off from the life I once knew and have suffered multiple losses over a relatively short period of time. I have read that multiple losses are certainly a risk factor for PND, so why not antenatal depression? I know I am less enthusiastic about a lot of things, now even compared to when I first stopped work in Feb - hard to find the motivation to really do anything at times. Guess the idea is to just keep a watch out and ask DH and others to do so too and take some action if I don't feel right. I am not saying I think I have depression at the moment, but am more curious about whether I will given all the risk factors present. One of the things that helps me feel grounded is the cats. Who would think it? They keep me company, they do crazy cat things - just the normal cat things, but it's makes me laugh and smile, they often seek me out when I am feeling particularly glum - either for a pat or to tell me they would like some food please. Hard to feel like I am the centre of the universe with 3 plaintive cats all asking for me to give them food. The looks on their earnst little faces is just gold.
I am glad your DH got to feel Grayson kicking. Not only that he has gotten to parent him too. That is very special. He will get to do the same with this bub too. I am surprised that I have felt the baby's movements so strongly so early. The obstetrician says its a mixture of knowing the sensations I am trying to detect and this not being my first pregnancy to get to a more advanced stage.
Not long til your scan. 7 days - so is it Monday next week? I am excited and nervous for you.
Ellie - OMG - that is soooo exciting, but I can imagine still terrifying. I can't wait to kick fear and anxiety to the kerb but that's a long way off yet. I can't wait to hear your BA and birth story. Believing in you!
Beata- Happy birthday sweetie! You had me ROTFL with your DH's reaction. I understand where you are coming from,( strike while the iron ( body) is hot!). I am already thinking about "an addition", and I am not even holding my earthside baby in my arms.... I haven't told DH that yet though. It's not that I am really thinking about being pregnant again, but more generally in terms of I hope to try again and I hope to be holding an earthside bubba, screaming down the birthing suite!
CharliB - Good to see you in here! 5 weeks is still so early! I hardly ever feel strong symptoms that early on. I bet you thought TCC ot the 2ww did your head in? Ha, now the real fear and anxiety begin. As you probably know, my strategy is to take one day at a time and try to find one thing each day to be thankful for. It's the way that I find works more often than not for me to get through. It's not perfect and it doesn' mean there is no fear or anxiety - for me it just means more often than not, I can manage. That's all I am aiming to do, manage. We all find our own way. I suppose the one difference between TCC and now is you have your BFP, so every day there is one very special miracle to be thankful for, though the fear and anxiety that your little miracle will be taken away can be paralysing at times, the thing to remember is you still have your little miracle. And that is truly a blessing.
Thinking of you at your dating scan.... exciting and nerve wracking. What date is it?
AFM - well the euphoria of last week has worn off and I can feel the fear and anxiety starting to press in. It could be just as simple as this is my first Monday home alone in 3 weeks ( I have been spoilt lately). I am hoping that's the case and I bounce back tomorrow. It's not all doom and gloom, but it feels a bit like it after the high of last week. I had a couple of nasty dreams last night, which didn't help. One woke me up at 1.30am and I was awake for a couple of hours after that, trying to get back to sleep. It was innocous really in a really bad thunder storm in my dream there was an exceptionally loud thunder clap, which woke me up with my heart racing but it obviously got the adrenaline pumping enough to stop me from getting back to sleep quickly. The next dream was quite unsettling. Giving birth to a very prem baby, who wasn't in NICU and who I kept forgetting to look after properly. DH says there is no way I need to worry about me not looking after the baby properly, but the images and the feelings in the dream were so very real, and still are. It's been a bit hard to shake the images and feelings from the dream. Maybe I should go and get myself a hot drink from the "outside", just to get out of the house and break the connection? I had the second dream just before DH's alarm went off this morning.
I think I will go and treat myself to a hot drink. There is a cafe not too far away that I can drive to and not have to walk very far to the door and not have to face the hordes at the shopping centre. Hmmm my tummy just rumbled too. Wonder what I might have for lunch. These are the big decisions that occupy my days these days. \
Thinking of you.
Thanks so much for your wonderful support ladies! I am at the can't leave the house stage...can't focus on anything other than bub and Miss A....phone off the hook...terrified of something happening...or catching some horrible bug...only 4 more sleeps...OMG!!!
Hey guys!
Sorry i have been MIA for a while. I am having some issues and i just couldnt bring myself to post in a pregnancy section.
For the last 12 days i have been bleeding and i am so stressed out about it. I have had 2 trips to the ED and 2 scans and no one can tel me why i am bleeding or even where it is coming from. the good news is Bub seems very happy and healthy in there! And that does put my mind at ease... but only until i see the blood again. Anyway sorry about tthe all me post... i have been reading posts but there is WAY too many to catch up on!
Oh just before i go....
Good luck Ellie!!!! XOXO
Mummyof4 - of sweetie - sending you big hugs through this very stressful time. I know what it feels like to bleed ( perhaps not for 12 days) but I understand it is just so terrifying. Sending you lots of strength and prayers.
How are along are you now?
HUGS
Thanks Dory. I am 10 weeks now.. feels like it is dragging on forever. the bleeding is really weird. i dont bleeda t all during the day but about 8pm at night it starts lasts for a couple of hours and then stops again till the next night. And even thought i am expecting it, it is horrible to see it and it scares me still every night
Wow just noticed you have a ticker!!! Looking good!!
M04 - that is weird timing. I would almost be tempted to go to sleep for those hours til it was all over ( I kno you would still see it happened) but being a busy mum no doubt there is no chance. My ob always recommends rest. Says there's no hard and fast evidence but anectdotally, it seems to help. It helped me during the times I bled, but resting also gives you way too much time to be alone with your thoughts.... I am a case in point.
I finally got around to enabling the ticker. I have done it today with trepdiation though because it feels as if I am not honouring my angels, as when in post in the loss forums I have to turn off my signature. But its ok here. I decided i needed to try and more publically embrace where I am, and maybe the reminder the ticker gives me will help.
Is Mr I at prep or school? Are Mr H and Miss J at home?
10 weeks feels like you are so far along doesn't it? Big hugs, and still sending positive thoughts your way.
mo4, I am so sorry that you have to go through this. Extra worry is the last thing that any of us need. I had bleeding with Grayson but it only lasted a few days here and there but it was all day. Do you have another ultrasound scheduled to check on bub? Try to rest hun. I know that is harder said than done.
beata, it is good to give your body a little time to recover. It is also great to have time to enjoy your little one. They get big very fast. I missed my pregnant belly as soon as Grayson was born. I can't wait to be able to feel this little bub wiggle around.
Ellie, 3 more sleeps!
Dory, It is nice to read that you have been feeling good and that you don't have an issue with depression. I did take meds on and off and I have gone to talk to an infant loss counsellor. Medication makes me feel physically horrible and I hated talking to a counsellor. I found that BellyBelly was always more help and support than any of the other things. I really didn't know how bad the depression was or that I even had it until it was gone. I think that is why I am really trying to keep a watch on it now. It is hard to tell what is worry/anxiety about being pregnant and what is depression. I have never had to deal with it before.
on a happier note, I love your ticker. More than half way there! I am so glad that you have decided to post one! :dance: Do you have another scan next week?
AFM, Next Monday AM is my scan. You will all be sleeping by the time I post about it though. My in-laws are coming over to watch Grayson. I really hope that we are able to find out the sex. We found out that Grayson was a boy around the same time.
Laney - I had forgotten you were in PA, USA and was wondering why you were "posting so late". Ha! Here I am up at the witching hour. I fell asleep in front of the tele during a show I really wanted to see the end of. Blah, and woke up about 11.30pm bright as a button. Oh well, I might go readmy book now and snuggle with DH who is an night owl. He's just coming to bed at midnight! I have already had a good 3 hours sleep. Oh well.
No more big scans for me. I might however ask for one at my obstetricians. He says I can have one any time I want for reassurance.
I hope bubs is cooperative at your scan and you get to discover whether you have a little boy or girl miracle on their way. We didn't want to know. Not sure why, just we don't. But I imagine its exciting knowing......
Ellie - I still am so excited. I hope you are able to get some sleep and rest..... take care.
Anyway, good night. Sweet dreams.
Hi- I just want to introduce myself and let you know I am lurking....I probably won't post too much yet, cause it is so early.......I am a little over 5 weeks pregnant. We lost our DS on Nov 10 2009, for who knows why at 16 weeks---so right now I am kinda scared of the second trimester, but I have to get there first right? Anyways it is nice to meet you all.
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I have tried sleepoing throught hat time but when i wake up it is even worse cause i end up with a massive lot of blood running down my leg cause it has all just kinda pooled inside and waited for me to stand up iykwim.
I know what you mean i spend most of my day laying on the couch and all i can do is think and most of the time it makes me cry
MrI is in Pre primary ( 5 full days a week) and MR H is in Kindy ( 2 half days, 1 full day a week) so that give me a good break... the little miss is always home but she sleeps so much that you dont even know she is here sometimes ROFL
Will be back later! kindy pick up!! lol
MO4 - I'm not sure if this helps or not ( I hope it does) but I bled for 6 weeks with this baby. A 2 week bled at 5wks pregnant and a 4 week bleed at 10wks, I constantly bled for the entire time so that's a little different, But baby is still with us at 28wks and there was no reason for the bleeding. So hopefully it will stop and everything will be ok :crossfingers:
Ellie - Good Luck
cmeglles - welcome
AFM - 28wks today, I had my GTT and yet another Anti-D injection. It's getting harder, I keep thinking these where some of the last things we got to do for Isabel. I have this feeling of inevitability that something is going to go wrong "it has every other time so why not this time too." It probably doesn't help that the other night when Hubby was rubbing my tummy he accidentally called this baby Isabel, I didn't know what to do and all he could manage was to repeatedly say sorry and then go and 'hide'. My psychologist cancelled my appointment for tomorrow and I'm starting to get so busy with work and appointments that it's getting harder to see her anyway. Oh and my doctor is going away for the 3 weeks before I'm due so I have no idea who will be looking after me and baby let alone delivering is baby decides to come early. On a brighter note though I have a growth and wellness U/S next Tuesday, so hopefully everything's ok.
Hi everyone :hello:,
Thanks for the welcomes :)
cmeglles - nice to see you in this thread, we'll be due about the same time all going well. Hope your little bean keeps behaving.
Dory - I love your ticker, it's nice to see! I might be game enough by about 30 weeks! Thanks for the advice, I agree that one day at a time is best. I am so much more aware of all the things that can potentially go wrong that it can be overwhelming. I'm glad your fur babies are looking after you, mine are lifesavers at the moment! When one of mine was sitting over my lower belly purring last night I was hoping that all those soothing feelings were making it through to the bub! Might counteract some of my worrying! Have you every seen that TV commercial where the little boy collects all those warm and fuzzy feelings in the glass jars? (if not you are going to think I am a big weirdo!) Anyways, I was thinking it would be nice to have a jar full of those incredible feelings you had last week, and could open it whenever you needed to over the next few months!
mo4 - I'm really sorry about the bleeding, l'm sure you coud do without any worry this pregnancy. Glad that the bub seems to be healthy, I'm crossing everything that it stays that way :pray:
Laney - I'm sorry that you feel you are withdrawing a bit. Hope that the feeling is only temporary. I'm going to keep seeing the councellor that I saw over the time we lost our son throughout this pregnancy. I'm also really worried that the anxiety could get the best of me. Good luck with the upcoming scan, hopefully some good news will help you feel a bit stronger :hug:
KAM - big hugs to you, I hope that your scan goes well and it makes you feel more positive about things
Ellie - hope you're feeling ok and getting lots of rest. Good luck!!!
Beata - how did Cameron's appt go? hope he is still getting more comfortable after the thrush.
AFM - 6 weeks now, can't belive how time is draaaaaging along! I had an HCG level done at 4.5 weeks which was 121, had another 7 days later which was 1650 or so. So that seems to be rising ok. My dating scan is on the 19th, I am praying that I will see a little heartbeat!!
Take care
xx
cmeglles - welcome girl! It is SOOOOOOOO good to see you in here. Good for you for being so brave to post! Belly rubs.
Charli - not too long for your scan. But I agree time does drag on. I also have those same thoughts that hopefully all the fur baby love will be transmitted to baby. I hoped that baby could sense ( and now hear) the purring. We have one fur baby that just has the best deep throaty rumble of a purr. I have recorded it and will record some more. I find it soothing. We also have another fur baby whose purr is so quiet it is so hard to hear but when I do it's just so special.
M04 - I think your DD might take after me. Last couple of days all I want to do is sleep. I slept for 3 hours yesterday and then went to bed early and slept in this morning. Makes the day go quickly that's for sure and less opportunity to chase my thoughts around and around in my head. I know what its like to be alone at home on "rest", dreading and fearing the worst but also hoping for the best and crying. It's not a great place to be. Let me know if I can do anything to help. The way these things work, it seems we have to find our own way through to deal with our fear. Know that you are not alone, as much as it might feel like you are. There are loads of us who care for you and are just wishing you all the strength and courage.
Laney - how are you doing? Spring time is such a nice time. I was in the States in 2000 during Spring. In Michigan. It was still snowing in spring, but the tulips still pushed their way up and showed their colour.
Ellie - is this the big day? I think it might be. I am sooo excited. God speed to you and bubs.
KAM - I understand how you feel. My ob and I have spoken at length about how without any "happy"endings it's harder to envisage a "happy ending". He actually raised it with me. He says if there is a happy ending, it gets easier the next time. I am not sure I will ever feel a lasting sense of confidence that there will actually be a happy ending, as much as I wish for one. I agree too, I am so much more aware of so many of the "unhappy" possibilities. In a way it is good to be informed but at the same time it's terrifying. Your poor DH - he must have just felt so bad after he mis- spoke like that. I would imagine he knows this baby is not your precious Isabel. I feel so sad that he felt he had to go and hide. It was probably just inadvertent and he might have been thinking the same sort of things you wrote about in your post. Were you OK? So many things to deal with huh?
AFM - I had a "woe is me" day yesterday. So much so I didn't even get on to BB. As the day wore on I was really unmotivated and despite my best intentions to cook something new for dinner ( spiced lamb and rice pilaf - I might try for it tonight), I did nothing and DH ended up heating up left overs from the night before when he got home from work and made toast and brought them to me on the lounge. I feel soo lazy and useless not doing things, but at the same time it's not just about me anymore. I just have to keep reminding myself that I am doing something really important, even if it feels a bit abstract at the moment. I know I am getting more scared of history repeating itself and so am taking it even easier than I have been. I am not on strict bed rest yet, but the obstetrician made a point to ask me if I was resting, in our last appointment on Friday just gone. Even thought I am so happy to have come so far, there just seems so far to go right now.
We are having some problems with one of our furbabies. He has started spraying. It has coincided with some construction work going on next door. We are going to get some Feliway ( synthetic cat pheremone (?) - it's not cheap) and if no fix will consult a behaviouralist. Poor little cat. He's also in a multi cat household, which might add to his stress. Our cats get on really well though, I wonder if I am missing signs of aggression between them? I hope the Feliway helps as we might use it when baby comes home to help ease any anxiety any of the cats might have, but particularly our jet pilot.