Pregnancy After Stillbirth/Recurrent Miscarriage/Late Loss September 2009

[Laney]

Ellie, I hope everything went well for your 12 week appt.

[Ellie]

HI everyone

Sorry I thought I'd posted...everything went great...bub was very busy and uncopperative so we were there for ages and had a great look! It was so bizarre having A sitting on DH's knee watching and chatting...seems like yesterday we were there looking are her! So we keep praying and hoping that we will hold this little one in our arms...still sinking in!

Hope eveyone's doing ok?

[Miss.B]

Yay Ellie!! So happy your appointment went well. It's always so reassuring to know everything is on track

B xxx

[helle]

hey girlies... gotta try make more of an effort to post in here!

Ellie, so glad that your 12 week scan went off without a hitch! It's so nice seeing them wriggle around in there!

Thanks everyone for your suggestions about the ashes. I won't be able to plant them in a plant ever as I have a horrible brown thumb... if I killed the plant I'd be devistated I think I might hold on to them, Laney I really liked your idea of letting them go once bub is here, all together.

AFM, everything is going smoothly again - AKA, no more blood in Pee! We have started antenatal classes now and after seeing all the pregnant mumma's I felt much better about myself as we're all pretty much similar sizes! (just different shapes!) Got to see some birth videos already... brings the whole thing back down the reality a bit, I think both DH and I were feeling abit nervous afterwards but I've made a pact with myself that I'm going to relax (well, try) and let my body do what it needs to and take me where it has to take me!
FIFTEEN working days left until MatLeave! *Bliss!* Have started to get a few things together for my hossy bag too - Mat Pads, breast pads, got some little sample sizes of my fave cleanser, toner and moisteriser & a little toothpaste hehe. Oh, and some labour massage oil by Tinderbox. I have a million singlets packed for JR too. Still trying to decide if I want to buy a packet of NB nappies for the first few weeks or if I'm going to just brave it out and use terry cloth ... the choices.

But anyway, sorry for the ramble! Hope everyone is well!

Mwah!xx

[mummabec]

Hi everyone!

Teagz, I'm coming to this late, but we have Luca's ashes at home. I really can't decide what to do with them. Putting them in the garden makes me worry that we'd move house. We own our house (well the bank does) but you never know. And I like having him close. They are on a bookshelf in our bedroom that has his memory box and a few other things on it. If you'd like to plant a memorial plant, not for the ashes but just to have, I can recommend a mother's love rose. Roses are virtually unkillable and mother's love roses smell lovely. They are pale pink. The most foolproof way to plant roses is bare rooted in winter. I bought mine online at Treloars (I think that's how you spell it). But you can buy them at the nursery with leaves and flowers on too.

I'm glad your pain etc has gone - how worrying that must have been. I liked watching the men's faces in antenatal classes. Te he.

Ellie, that's great about your scan. Sweet that your daughter was there!

Beata, I hope there's no hiding this time. Hard having to wait longer than you expected to find out. I've got my 20 week scan in a couple of weeks and I'm dying to find out whether it's a boy or a girl.

Hi everyone else!

AFM, I'm looking forward to catching up again now that I've finished my thesis!! I'm feeling much calmer since I handed it in on monday.

Had an ob appointment on wednesday and got to hear bub's heartbeat (had to ask) so that was a relief. I have spent weeks thinking he or she had died, even though I had no evidence for it. Had a booking in appointment with a midwife - it's been ages since I had to tell anyone new that Luca was stillborn. Fortunately she'd read my file.

I'm jealous of those of you going on maternity leave soon! Work has been crazy lately. Though I am going to finish early in case the baby has to be born early. The earliest is 33 weeks (unless her or she comes early by themselves) so I am going to finish before that - in February. Guess it will go soon enough.

xx Bec.

[Miss.B]

Hi girlies,

Teagz, glad everything is running smoothly for you!! Wow, how exciting to be packing your hospital bag already and going on mat. leave soon!!! So happy for you sweets It seems that you got your BFP not that long ago and you're already 32 weeks along!!!!! Wow! Glad you're finding the antenatal classes good, don't worry hun you'll do just great!! I have booked myself for the c/s class in early March, it only goes for half a day, I just hope I don't go into labour before then!!!!!

Bec, wow, look at you flying along hun!! I am also so excited to find out the baby's gender, I just can't wait. I also thought something bad happened to bub after my 13 week scan, I think it's natural to worry after a loss and have this ridiculous dillusions!!!!!
GL with your scan hun!

AFM, I just found out on Friday that half my work is being made redundant, including my poor DF. We work at the same company but in different buildings, he is a production manager and all the production is closing down. I'm in the office and about 4 out of 12 people are getting the redundancy package, I hope I'm one of them as I wasn't planing on coming back after my mat. leave. I've been there for 15 years so the pay out will be nice. Basically, we manufacture stuff for the housing industry, so they are moving the production side of things up to China where it's cheaper to manufacture, but the office staff will pretty much stay put as they will import things out of the other sites around the globe and we'll get be like a giant warehouse for our local/export customers.

Ahyhoo, enough of my blabbering, feeling good and feeling much more movement now. Not big kicks yet as my placenta is at the front

Big hello to everyone and big hugs too.

B xxx

[Miss.B]

Evening Ladies,

Just popping in quickly to let you know were having a little man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sooooo excited, I think deep down I knew it was a wee boy. The was no question, a willy was freely floating around!

Big hugs to all

B xxx

[helle]

Evening Ladies,

Just popping in quickly to let you know were having a little man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sooooo excited, I think deep down I knew it was a wee boy. The was no question, a willy was freely floating around!

Big hugs to all

B xxx

Congrats Honey! xx

[Miss.B]

Awwww, thanks Teagz!!!!! Well now that we're having boys for the second time (you, me, Diana), I bet Megan is having a girl!!!! Well that's my bet anyway...lol

How have you been sweets?? Not long for you to go on your mat. leave! Yeepee!!!!!!

Girls, I've been getting some beautiful pics of Fabian from Diana, he is just so scrumptious!!!! She is over the moon with her little man, I am so happy everything is going well at her end .

Have a great day everyone How is everyone in here BTW, it's been pretty quiet!

B xxx

[helle]

Beata, You must have ben reading my mind... I was just thinking myself how weird it was that we seemed to all be having the same sex again. We'll have to see!

Yesss, I'm well and truely counting down to my MatLeave now. I've had enough of everyone whining in my office... but that's a whole other thread Only 2 weeks to go!

I'm been excellent apart from a bit of pain in my pubic bone, but it's more annoying than anything else really. I'm also starting to get big enough that I'm hitting that stage where I'm restricted to doing certain things... like, who would have thought it'd be painful to jump (yes, literally jump, i'm not sure what I was thinking either...) to grab the curtain pully thing that had gotten wedged in the pully wheels? Not meee! Also, rolling over in bed is becoming quite a challenge (and not just for me, when I am cuddling up to DH's back he sometimes wriggles back into me a bit, and forgetting about the bump he has misjudged the distance between his butt and my belly & we've had a couple of ouchy collisions) and I've taken my belly out on a few things (door, wall) not hard, but enough to make me go "hmmm, I'll have to judge that space better next time" I'm not sure what happened really... it's like I've become this clumbsy blimp in a matter of days rather than easing into it

Jr has been good too. I keep reading that they're meant to be slowing down in movment now due to space issues but jeez.. I don't think this one ever stops! It's less kicking now though and more squirming and sticking out his little bum/arm/leg/elbow . He put on a good show for DH last night & also this morning, it's gorgeous. I'm really looking forward to meeting him! We have his cot and change table coming this weekend (finally) so he's room will be officially set up, I just need to get some sheets. Then I will start concentrating on packing my bag and washing everything while I'm on leave (so I have something to do )

How are you going with your little Man? (cos I can say that now hehe) lots of kicking I hope! I love once you get to that kicking stage, it's so reassuring to beable to feel them all the time.

[Berry1]

A Little BOY - congratulations Beata, how exciting! It is funny that a few of you are having the same sex, I have about 14-weeks to go to find out what my little one is

Teagz, so close for you now. You poor thing bumping into things - lol! I will probably be the same, I have already bumped into the odd door, especially getting into the shower.

Glad to hear that Diana & Fabian are doing well. Tell her we would love to see some photo's!

Bec, great to hear from you & congratulations on handing in your thesis, what a huge achievement. It's so awful having bad thoughts about your baby & pg. Glad that you heard the heartbeat, take reassurance from that, your little one is fine I'm sure.

Ellie, glad to hear your scan went well.

AFM, kicks are getting stronger, which I just love. I am feeling them more often now which is great. Some mornings I just want to stay in bed feeling my little one kick around, I still don't feel her/him kick around as much when I'm moving about. Hope everyone is well.

[Miss.B]

Teagz, ha ha about bumping into things!! How funny! And colliding with your DH that's even funnier!!! You poor thing. I am so badly co ordinated at the best of times, so I'm expecting to be a total veg later! ha ha Sounds like you've got everything under control hun! It's so good that you have a lively little fella in here, this little one has been making himself 'known' heaps more lately too! Yay!!!!!

Megan, it's so lovely that we're feeling bubs move heaps more now isn't it? I'm like you, I'm not feeling as much walking around but when I rest/sit down I can really feel the movements! It's just so re assuring and lovely.

Diana, if you're out there post some pics of little Fabian! He is just delicious!!

Hi to Ellie, Bec & Laney and anyone else I missed!

B xxx

[Joselyn]

Diana,

Congratulations to you and your husband on the arrival of dear Fabian. I was so thrilled to see that you had taken him to 28 weeks - the golden number as the doctors referred it to me. It is a shame that you had such a touch experience this time around but its wonderful that he is here with you - ready to explore this world under your wing. Well done mum!

From the first time I posted on BB I was amazed at how similar our stories were. We lost our little angels only a month apart, to the same problem with the same confusion over whether or not it was an IC or infection. I havent been on BB for ages because of the same thing as you... I had the most awful experience throughout this pregnancy (though I am pleased to say I have a beautiful healthy son named Jay Bradley). Anyhow, I found out at 17 weeks that my cervix had shorten within the span of a week by 2.4cm. I went in to hospital the next day for an emergency cerclage and was told the following day it was not a success and that my membranes had ruptured. We were going to lose this baby too. I spent the hole day waiting to have the stitich removed, crying and trying to brave as I knew what lay ahead for me again however, at 11pm that night when they could schedule me in to have the stitch removed, the doc saw on the ultrasound that there was plenty of fluid around the baby - there must have been a mistake! Can you believe it!!!!!

They kept me on bed rest for ten days waiting to see if they would break (I personally feel that the doc who diagnosed the mem rupture - who was a colleague of my ob) was embarassed and was hoping she wasn't wrong. But, ten days later, they still hadn't ruptured. I was sent home on strict bed rest - I didn't walk for 4 weeks - my ob was so mad at me, he thought I was going too far, but I wasn't prepared to risk it. Then, when I got to 24 weeks, they admitted me into hospital for 4 weeks to get me to 28 weeks. Like you would have experienced, I had the dreaded ultrasounds to see if the cervix was shortening further.. and sometimes it was a good result, and sometimes it was bad. So I prayed and prayed - I did the rosary every night, and I haven't been a practicing catholic for years!

In the meantime, I still wasn't walking - I was having bed baths and well.. you know the rest. Again, my doc was frustrated with my desire to stay off my feet - but he couldn't do anything because it was my choice. He sent up Psychs and all because he thought I was over doing it, but still I wasn't taking any chances!

Somehow we did it, we got to 28, then 29 and before I knew it I was 36 weeks pregnant and get this, they had to remove the stitch!!! I went into labour at 3.30am the day I was scheduled to have the stitich removed but it was considered real labour till 8.30pm that night. My little boy arrived into the world healthy - but my struggle was so horrible, I don't actually like to talk about it today.

So I wanted to let you know that I know exactly how you were feeling - we had such a different expectation this time round didn't we. I don't think either of us thought it would be like that again. I hoped the stitch would just make me normal like all the other girls...

So my heart goes out to you for the experience you had but I know if you are like me, this child is my every reason for waking up in the morning. He's so special to so many people - and I don't think its hard to believe that they were gifts from someone above to the both of us. I hope Fabian brings you every happiness that you so rightly deserve, you've been strong and deserve it.

Much love Diana, Jasmine and Jay xxx

So here you all are! I am soooo very happy to see all my old BB friends in the pregnancy section! CONGRATULATIONS to you all, absolutely fantastic news girls. It doesn't seem that long ago that we were advising each other on CM and praying for sticky embies..!! Congrats also to all the girls I have not had the pleasure of getting to know. I hope your pregnancies go well and your babies are born healthy and happy.

A huge congrats to all the mammas that had babies during this time! This forum has been very busy with lots of wonderful news....

Sorry I have not been in touch in so long but I was facing some pretty fierce demons during this pregnancy and just didn't have the strength to do anything but pray and cry.

As you all know, thanks to Beata, I had my little boy almost 5 weeks ago. You also know that I have spent most of this pregnancy in hospital and on bed rest but I made it! It was soooo tough but I made it!!! Fabian was born at 28w6days after my membranes ruptured at 28 weeks. My OB had only just taken me off bed rest 2 days before so I didn't get very far! He is doing very well and still in his humidicrib in hospital but he now weighs 1782 grams and is just gorgeous. He will probably have to stay for another 3 or 4 weeks as he needs to fatten up a little more. I can't wait until I can take him home.

Will try and log in more often to see how you are all going but please forgive me if I don't respond often. I spend 12 hours a day at the hospital, plus I express milk every 3 hours (including at night - it is so upsetting having to get up to a breast pump instead of a baby) so am really exhausted most of the time.

Take care and give your bellies a little rub from me!

Hugs
Diana x

[Laney]

Diana, It is so nice to hear that little Fabian is doing so well. I hope he is home with you very soon.

Joselyn, It sounds like you have had a very difficult time. It is so hard to have an OB that doesn't support you the way that you need. Congratulations on the safe arrival of your little boy.

Ellie, I am so happy to hear that your 12 week scan went well. Please keep us posted. Do you think that you will find out the sex at the next scan?

[Laney]

Hi Ladies!
It is very quiet in here! I hope everyone is doing well.

[Miss.B]

Good morning ladies,

Merry Christmas everyone !!!!

Wow, look at our tickers ladies!!! I haven't been in this thread for a while and it seems like the weeks on our tickers have just gone crazy! ha ha. Teagz, you're next my love!!!! Can't wait to hear your announcement hun. You must be pretty excited now!!

Hope everyone has a nice day today

Love and big hugs
B xxx

[mummabec]

Hi everyone! Merry Christmas and happy new year (with healthy babies). For Christmas I got viability because I'm 24 weeks now! Not wanting to deliver any time soon but it's great to know we can get the baby out if needed. Every week now will be a bonus.

Hope everyone got through Christmas OK. For me it was a day of new hope, with some sadness as last Christmas we were looking forward to the impending birth of our little boy.

xx Bec.

[helle]

Hello lovies! just quickly popping on to wish you all a belated Merry Christmas! Sorry I haven't posted much... think about you all the time though.
Beata, yep... me next! I'm a whale and I'm soooooo ready XD (and I feel guilty everytime I whine about wanting bub out now - I promised I wouldn't!) Bags are all packed, seat is in the car... C'mon little one!

Mummabec, congrats on reaching the 24 week mark! Although it is early it's still good to know that it's a viable stage now! Fingers crossed that you make it to be a nice plump mumma still though

Well I bettre be off, DH wants me to watch a movie with him...

Mwah!! xx