Sorry I have not posted in a while, I have been away.
Jude, I have just read the terribly sad news about your twins. I am so very very sorry that you have to farewell your precious babies. I understand that you need some quiet time but please know that you and your family and angels are in my thoughts and prayers.
I will have to read back to see how everyone else is doing. Hugs to all
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jude - thinking of you on the loss of your precious twin angels, words cannot express the devastation you must be feeling yet again, its just not fair. my thoughts and prayers are with you, we understand your need for time to yourself just know that we are beside you every step of the way. love and hugs to you.
and a group hug and belly rubs to all
not feeling up to any more posts today, have a headache and generally not feeling well but thinking of you all and those in their last few days, good luck looking forward to hearing your wonderful news
Jude - thinking of you today, and all the days. May our love surround you and help guide you through these bleak times.
AFM? I have some great news.
Today, I am really walking on air. The scan, it was awesome. I didn't really relax until I saw the little chickens heart beat, but we got to that very quickly.
Here are the details - 159 bpm! 6.9cm long and the cervix is 38mm and a 1 in 3599 risk of downs. All in all, a very good result. Made the sleepless night last night worth it.
DH and I have been in our own little world of bliss today, real bliss. It's not been a feeling we have both felt so strongly for such a long time. if we could bottle this moment and just pour some out when we needed it, we would.
We now have a big decision to make - to stitch or not, when its not clearly medically indicated. I am trying to get an appointment with my counselor to see if I have missed anything in my thought processes about the "stitch".
I have decided to try to discard "cautiously optimistic" and just go in boots and all with optimistic. here's hoping it works. It has today, so that's a start.
Laney - good news! Starbright - good work. I know its hard.
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Really not coping too well ATM which is why I have been quiet. I hate this stage and it is just a horrible wait. The occasional moments where all the negatives just overwhelm the thoughts. I have had no bleeding this time - my only other pregnancy without bleeding was Caitlyn. The abnormal nuchal needing an amnio kind of helped (in a weird kind of way LOL) but I still worry.
sorry to just drop in with a question but at 5am it is really on my mind...
question for those who have ever had a D&C. I know this is D&C #8 for me but it seems odd. I have NO loss at all! There were a couple of watery pink smears while in hospital on the loo paper but since then nothing. I gather it was just what was left in the vagina afterwards coming thru but seems rather odd.
I've had cramps and taken panadeine .. I am used to it being light AF type straight after then within 8 hrs it is like a heavy AF. I am going to ph the midwives in the clinic in the morning but I think I may be asked to go in. I am thinking that what has happened is a piece of large tissue has got stuck in the cervix like happened when I m/c Joey then I just gushed everywhere for hours once it was pulled free with forceps and I ended up in theatre. At least another visit would now be free as I have paid my yearly access but still...Robert has to work tomorrow so I'll have to either see if Shannon my neighbour could drive me in and ask Tash to watch Daniel or drive myself in.
When I bend over I get a really sharp obstructive pain right across under my diaphragm at the base of my ribs.
. PS D&C was 8:30am Tuesday morning and it is now 5am Wednesday mornng and still all clear on TP and pad.
AD, I would get checked out to be sure hun. After my D&E with Parker I didn't have much bleeding at all, only a few little spots. I was very surprised and I got it checked out. I did have pretty bad cramps for a week or two. After a week or so I started to get heavier cramps and I had a little bit more bleeding. Please let us know how your appt. goes. We are all thinking of you.
Angelic - I am with Laney, get it checked out, but by now you probably have called the middies. I hope you're ok. Thinking of you.
Michelle71 - be strong. You can get through this. I know its tough, but when you need inspiration or strength, just go look inthe mirror and you will see a beautiful strong woman who can endure looking back at you.
ad - thinking of you, i've never had a d&c so can offer no words of wisdom, hoping you get checked out, let us know how you go. hugs to you.
michelle - great to see you back in here, but sorry your not mentally doing ok, i haven't read up to see why you needed an amnio, is there a post somewhere i can read about it? thinking of you and here for you if you need an ear. subsequent pg are so bloody hard aren't they, people assume because you've got 1 or 2 living children that its all smooth sailing this time, wish it was that easy.
dory - brilliant news on the scan hon, hold on to that optimism as long as you can, we know in this journey it can be few and far between but also when you get such great news, remember to hold on to it and think "at this point in time my baby is ok", it always helped me to think that, it could at least get me through to my next crazy lady time lol.
nearly time for beata's arrival, thinking of you on your last day before meeting your 2nd son.
afm - feeling a bit better today, but crazy lady is still visiting, been trying to bribe her to take a visit to your house sb, just kidding. just trying to get walking a bit more to help the pelvis pain but that just makes me more tired, who thought exercise could do that?!, go figure lol, reuben had an active weekend, which was good, but probably helped on by the soft drink i consumed, or the fact he just wanted to attend the party too. anyway think i'm just babbling now, sorry
Judy, I had very little bleeding with Nathaniel and like you I worried about this. I did pass a clot a few days afterwards (TMI but I felt some pain and knew something was 'lodged' and went to the toilet and it came out) but had no heavy bleeding after this. I had on and off bleeding for weeks but never heavy. I would definitely get checked given what happened with Joey and just to give you some peace of mind. Sending you the biggest of hugs.
Thank you for your replies. I did ph the midwives at the hospital and then at my OB rooms and they all said it is normal. But this afternoon I got crippling pains and my daughter sent me to bed then when I got up a few hours later the light loss started so I think I may have had a blockage after all which worked its way loose.
Layney it's good to see you have rising betas doing well... how far will you be for your scan?
mind blank here.. late night but just wanted a quick check in before bed.
Hi everyone
Absolutely stuffed with DH away...just wanted to say hi...and thinking of you all...off to bed at 8.15pm....only 8 weeks more...I think I can I think I can....
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AD, I hope that after a rest the pains settle for you. I know that it must be hard for you to find time to relax, it sounds like you have a full house.
I will be about 7 weeks when I have my scan. I really think bub will measure a few days smaller than that because I have a long cycle and I ovulate late.
klee, so glad to read that you are getting more movements. They really do help keep the crazy lady away. Sorry that you are suffering with pelvic pain. It really is horrible, I remember it very well. I think when Grayson started to get bigger and he moved up the pains started to get a bit better.
dory, so glad that your scan went well. I really love the 12 week scans. AngelLukesmum had a cerclage. She might be able to offer some advice.
Michelle, I know that there is nothing that anyone can say to take away the worry. Take it one day at a time, you will get there. Take advantage of working near HB dopplars We are here for you if/when you need us.
Ellie, I know you can! One more week crossed off.
Katiegirl, I hope your crazy lady didn't follow you while you were away. I know that you sounded worried about missing OB appts.
beata, thinking of you.
AFM, I am just crossing off one day at a time and trying not to worry too much. It is hard when I feel like I have so much to worry about. I really have a love/hate relationship with scans. I want to know everything is growing as it should but I am so afraid that it wont be. It helps that my OB only has one ultrasound tech and I know her well. If I am going to get bad news I want it to come from someone I kind of know and feel comfortable with.
just saying a quick hello, not going too bad, bub is moving well most of the time but when she has a quiet day i freak out a little, how the hell am i going to do this for another 16-18 weeks
Klee - glad to hear you're feeling a bit better. Banish the crazy lady for an hour or so and go and pamper yourself! Or send her my way so she can expend all her energy doing my housework!
JLK - you can do it. Look how far you've come! One moment, one day at a time. You can do it.
Laney - thank you. 7 weeks is a good time for a scan. I hope that you're not too anxious during the scan and can enjoy a little bit of it. For me that early scan was very reassuring, more confirmation that I wasn't imagining things and I actually was pregnant and also that there only appeared to be one little one. I used to pour over the picture of the scan, just some indistinguishable blobs on the screen, but blobs that meant so much. I know what you mean too about feeling comfortable with someone, it somehow makes any news, good or sad, much easier to bear.
Michelle - how you doing today?
Mummabec - How are you doing? A bit quiet...
Angelic - it seems you are a bit more content ( well less worried) with your lochia now? I am glad it seems to have stopped worrying you as much.
AFM.... there was one thing I was disappointed about the scan. I see a maternal fetal medicine specialist ( an obstetrician who has further specialised) for the scans and he is an absolute riot. I adore him but I forgot he doesn't usually do the nuchal scans unless there are multiples. Instead I had a heavily pregnant sonographer asking me questions about my pregnancy losses and it actually made me a bit uncomfortable. She was quite good really, it was just my reaction to her. I would have preferred the Dr, just because he is so zany and he offers so much support and information. I will see him for the next scan, so that is something else to look forward to in addition to that scan. Take care lovelies.
Just a quick one to say that I had a beautiful little boy on Tuesday night at 10:40pm,his name is Liam. Had a waterbirth, quite a difficult 2nd stage but no tearing and he arrived safely which is the main thing. He has jaundice and is in a humidity crib but hoping that won't be for too long. DH & I are so over the moon with him, his just a gorgeous little thing!
Beata, I have been thinking of you, I hope you are your little man are well, did you have him on the same day as me the 16th, I couldn't remember.
Hi all, just wanted to make myself known to you lovely amazingly strong ladies. i've been reading this thread for a few days and was unsure whether to post.
We lost our son on new years eve at 39 weeks. As of yesterday we were shocked to discover that we are pregnant again. I'm not sure how i feel about it yet.....we had no intentions of trying again for a few months and did our best to avoid getting pregnant, yet here we are again. I feel scared, guilty and a little embarrased....but there is some happiness in there which i'm grateful for, i would hate to deny our next baby any of the excitement and joy that it should get from us.
We were lucky to get some answers on what happend to our son Ethan, they found that some of the placenta had died most likely from a blood clot. They also found that he had some development problems with his brain so if he had survived he would have had 'significant learning disabilities'. Finding answers has made it easier to cope with the loss of him but it doesn't seem to be calming my fears too much right now. The blood tests i had done at the time showed that my blood clotting was fine but i have to get further tests done in april to completely rule it out.
So thats my story. We haven't yet told anyone....i'm pretty sure that we are only four weeks along....off to the docs next week for confirmation. So i guess i just needed to tell someone....thanks for listening xx
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