I had a blood test yesterday to see what HCG is doing and the bleed is now mostly brown and very light (none over night!). We both know it's very unlikely that the pregancy will continue - is it wrong of me to wish it over now, if it's going to end up in a miscarriage, rather than prolonging the pain?
I should hear back today about the results of the BT - my jolly F.S. doesn't believe that the results are "urgent" so he didn't tick the urgent box on the pathology request form. (Okay, so it's not life threatening but it's pretty important to me!). And I had a teary in the office this morning, luckily no one else was here, and it was just because a boss suggested a I reword I sentence in a report. My nerves are shot, and I'm wondering if I should go home....
Anyway thanks for listening to my ramblings... I'll keep you posted.
Ruth, I am still holding out hope the b/t will show the PG is viable if the bleeding stopped. Why don't you give yourself a day off....regardless what the result is, I think you will be pretty emotional...big
It is so hard to focus when you are going through so much. And I am so sorry you are in this place. It sucks big huge time. Can you try and get the rest of the day off? Take care hun. xo
Ruth- fingers crossed! If you can, go home...I have been in that situation at work and it can be just impossible to focus and hold it all together...big hugs.... and no, there is nothing wrong with the way you are feeling
Good luck today Ruth, I would go home if I were you. Its hard enough going through what you are when you're at home, but being expected to concentrate on work aswell?? I'm sure you're mentally EXHAUSTED!
I have been quietly watching your progress & will be thinking of you today.
be kind to yourself and go home - you dont need the extra burden of work today - you need to think about you.
Fingers are crossed that the hcg results come back as a good surprise and that your little FET is a sticky one that makes it to 9 months - despite the bleeding.
Limbo land – results from the latest HCG are in. 3900!!! Up from 2700, 48 hours ago. Dr says that this is not great as it us not doubling but it is not bad either. While we are estatic that the super-embie has still got a chance – praise God, we do not want to get our hopes up as we know that slow rising HCG almost always ends badly.
So we are still sitting on the fence until either a) the spotting increases to full on bleeding or b) the 16th of January when I will have an early scan. Dr said that no further blood tests are required at this point in time as the results can be just confusing and upsetting.
I have ended up staying at work – it is good to keep busy and not to dwell on my own misery. I have been taking it pretty easy though and I am feeling more in control of my emotions than this morning.
We know that God has things in his control, which is good, because they are completely out of our control!
Thank you so much for your ongoing support flowerchild, farmgirl, danielle, possums, oscaroscar, ruff, kitt3n and cuddlepie (sorry if I forgot anyone!).
Hi Ruth,
I'm in your Belly group and have tracked your progress, you're probably sick of hearing it but I sincerly hope everything works out for Super-Embie Hang in there sweetie!
xx
I'm thinking of you Ruth. It's such an emotionally exhausting time, not knowing what's going on. You've been so strong, so make sure you take good care of yourself. I've got my fingers crossed for you, and the embie. Hurry on the 16th.
Oh wow Ruth what a roller coaster. I've been reading your posts... and now felt compelled to respond. God definitely has your situation in hand - keep trusting that He will do the right thing.
You are going through so much right now... big for you!
Oh what a rollercoaster you guys are on! From the dispair of being sure it's over, to the hope of thinking maybe it's not, to the in-between mental agony of not knowing what is going on at all. What a comfort to know that God does know exactly what is going on with you and this little one, and has it all in His control. Not a hair can fall from your head without His will, and He promises to give us what we need when He brings us through times of trial.
I pray that you will receive strength to make it through these next days until some more definite answers can be found. All the best.
hi ruth thats great news at least its not less although when i had a blighted ovum my levels went up but not doubled until about 9000HCG which was at 12 weeks and its should have been at least 20 000 by then so had a scan and there was no baby just the sack and placenta growing due to chromosonal abnormalities the bub stops growing from about 5 weeks and dissolves leaving all the rest behind so the body still thinks its pregnant and the sac grows although it is empty i also bled so i knew something was up even had MS real bad so i was sure it was a good sign but in the end there was nothing i could do and had to have a D and C but this isnt the case always and i hope your miracle is real and i really hope i havent scared you but its best to be prepared as im sure you are as am I this time round. Im scared to death it will happen to me again so i totally understand how you feel and have been following you everyday hoping for the news also your levels jumped higher than last BT did they not? GOOD LUCK!!!! its not over til its over and as long as the bleeding stays away you should be fine!
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thinking of you today!
Hang in there sweetie!
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