thanks everyone,
i love coming here it's keeping me sane! had my blood test but won't know the results till tomorrow (i live in the country). so it's another night of wiping and stressing, i'm hoping it will all settle down but to date i am still bleeding, i tell myself not to worry as it is very light and the same thing happened with number 2. i kinda feel a bit selfish actually as i can see there are alot of you who have suffered alot more than i am. i just wish i could switch my brain off, i feel like it's consuming my entire being. anyway fingers crossed the old hormones are going in the direction they should be! will let you all know tomorrow. thanks again for being so supportive, you guys are my lifeline right now!!!!i was talking with my partner who is being fantsatic with me through this and he reminded me of how lucky we really are. when i was having this trouble with number 2 (Cailan, pronounced Ky-lan), at 5 weeks the doctors actually told me that she had died and booked me in for a d and c. after spending the night absolutley devastated i showed up at the hospital the next morning to be told by another doctor that she wasn't convinced i was losing the baby. she saved my daughter's life. and so really, all things considered i am incredibly incredibly lucky, because i have her here, she's completely healthy and she is the light in my life!