Don't worry about it hun. I remember with bub no 3, I felt a bit ambivalent about it all when I first found out, even though we had been trying for another baby. I just never felt that excited about it. I don't know why, even now I don't really know why I felt like that because I was happy and excited with all the others. But of course we had a beautiful baby girl who is now 2 and such a joy to have in our lives. You will get there - just give yourself time. And don't feel like you have to tell anyone until you feel ready.
i was ecstatic the first day, and a stunned mullet for a week after that. Then terrified it would die till 6wk3d when i got my first dating ultrasound, when i finally started to feel like it wasnt going to die on me. But a horrible year of financial problems, relationship problems, in-laws problems, and a chronic case of a bad luck streak has me still tied between joy and protective feelings, and trouble bonding as already baby has caused dramas (lost job for one), sometimes i feel resentful, but i know it will pass, because i'm already so defiant that no in-laws will get custody, so i know there's already some love starting to form. 6 weeks to find out the sex yet, and then bubs will start to take on an identity, and we'll be even more closer again :-)
There's no doubt, the emotional rollercoaster you will ride will be amazing, but you'll get there, just dont allow yourself to feel guilty on top of it all, the love will come in good time!
I can relate....I'm 7 weeks pregnant...completely unexpected. Boyfriend dumped me at 5 weeks for refusing to have an abortion, so I guess the excitement of it has been a little dulled...
Nevertheless, with each day that passes, I feel my desire growing, for the baby...and the excitement is slowly creeping in as I'm beginning to plan my life and future around the prospect of being a mother. In fact, I'm probably more excited than I even realise, as I know I'd be competely devastated if anything went wrong with the pregnancy...hopefully good food, vitamins and plenty of sleep will work in our favour.
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