Ohh Missy,
Every time I read ur crying my heart breaks. You know what, maybe you just need to see another Dr re: levels and see what they say. As Ive said before, from 3 different Drs I have had good, bad, great views. I know how hard it is waiting, I know how you feel re: living your life. Life at the moment seems to be put on hold. It would be easy if we didnt have other kids to tend to but I know my kids are feeling it right now. That makes me feel terrible. We need to think positive. If levels are increasing then good, not everyones levels shoot up high. I think and pray everything will be okay for you. Please take it easy and try and do something nice for yourself.