Charlotte you're going through what i class as the thoughest part of my pregnancies. Give me aches and pains anyday. I'm generally a happy person and find the day to day goings on of having children fairly enjoyable but the first 3 months of pregnany or MS i'm a different person. I have no motivation and looking after my children was a real chore. I felt a lot of guilt during this time because of the way i'd feel towards my kids.

And yes you can't just curl up and sleep like we probably did when expecting our firsts. But make sure you do it whenever possible.

Your surprise sounds lovely and hopefully once you are able to share it with everyone the fun will start (and maybe the MS/AS will be gone for good.

In the meantime be kind to yourself and just do whatever you need to to get by. It'll get better