Just had a missed call from my FS - I wish I had not listened to his message - managed to get my headspace into a good space and he dumps it on me.... I know he has to say that - and I know he is just being cautious - but I am scared and DSD is with us and we are out shopping and waiting for our number tto come up for a table at TGIs and all I want to do is crawl into a ball and hide.

My psych reminded me to live in the moment today - in this moment I am trying hard not to freak out and think the worst. But my lack of symptoms this week is worrying me.

Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.

Why couldn't he just let me live in the illusion for a bit longer and just say he wanted another scan on such and such a date.... Bah humbug.