Awsww sweetie, big hugs for you, and Aaron.

You know I went through the same thing, it not feeling real for so long, and when I was about 16 weeks I saw my GP and asked her to use the doppler so I could hear the heartbeat for some reassurance and she couldnt find it, so like you said, I dont know which is worse. But atleast she tried. As you know all is just fine, so maybe the midwife was unsure of checking for the heartbeat as she was worried if it would only make you stressed if she couldnt find it?

Jess