Hey RayRay,

I've been avoiding posting for a while...so many people are pregnant and I worry about talking about my negative experiences.

Bub's is still hanging in there, but i'm not my old positive self. I think Im worn down because of these couple of weeks of problems, everyday waiting for something bad to happen. The bleeding hasn't stopped, I've had godawful cramping and backache and it's all worrying. I've been holding off on going to the doctors because I'm scared to. I've got to find a new one and that alone scares me. I'm seeing one on Tuesday, then I will be 8w5d and they will take it more seriously. I'm hoping to get another scan done then.

I've lost my morning sickness symptoms very suddenly for the last two days, that alone has freaked me right out.

I'm sorry that I'm a negative person at the moment, my better judgement is not to type.