Why is the first trimester such a mine field???

Sorry to hear UDD. Don't give up though.

Having a baby is one of the most rewarding (and exhausting) things you'll ever do. Having a child is worth it. Having an m/c is also one of the worst things that can happen as well. It's all sooooo difficult. I've been there and experienced both and am still in the danger zone myself at the moment..... it's horrible. So, I do understand the empty feeling.

Don't give up!!! You have angels watching you! They love you.....